The deranged thing is my life is good and so I feel like I'm failing upwards and letting people down who thought better of me. I want to be better but I feel like I'm starting from a negative position.
Don't wanna make anyone deal with my insecurities but god I wish I didn't feel like an insufferable fuckup all the time. You know the bit about if everyone around you acts a certain way maybe it's you? Yeah I wish I knew what I was doing wrong.
I think becoming an indie dev has ruined creative expression games for me. Every time I get into one I just feel both limited and like I should be developing.
@Shattered_Earth Outside of political stuff, I think some people are losing their grip on their sanity, going into survival mode, and are willing to throw the vulnerable out to get it all back. Whether any part of that is realistic doesn't factor in as long as it feels realistic.
Working on the last of the Magic Market puzzles. Anise gets supernatural contacts throughout her festival adventure, they will trade magic items with her. Jaz here has no idea what he's doing, just like Anise, so they become friends.