moon

19, he him 🏳️‍⚧️| tw mental illness | (sh)edtwt

[moon @moon1scrazy]

── .✦ "get worse diet" accountability threat because my prom is in a month and I'm still fat (especially because of Christmas)

[moon @moon1scrazy]

I need to lose everything i gained back, move out, cut contact with everyone and start over and NEVER mention my past again

[grace🧁 @fujograce]

binge eating has genuinely ruined my life and changed me as a person

[moon @moon1scrazy]

How relapse looks at me after i binged back to my sw

[moon @moon1scrazy]

Day 17 - 09.01
63.1kg
991/800
I'd go alr with food if it wasn't for the god fucking stupid cottage cheese i keep forgetting how high kcal it is 😭😭 and after that i also drank some wine so uhhh idk how to est wine cals unfortunately

[moon @moon1scrazy]

── .✦ "get worse diet" accountability threat because my prom is in a month and I'm still fat (especially because of Christmas)

[moon @moon1scrazy]

Days 14-16 - 06-08.01
I got my period and binged and ate over 1k on all these days ans was too ashamed to come here 😭 I was so tired of feeling guilty over 1k I considered recov for a while but I'm not skinny enough yet so NOW I'm locking back in (fr this time)😭💔

[moon @moon1scrazy]

I was craving sweets and ate sweets and the food noise is gone???

[moon @moon1scrazy]

Ong fuck ts I want my old intake back😭😭

[moon @moon1scrazy]

I miss doing 600-800 cal and a 24h+ fast once a week this get worse diet bs makes me so unmotivated 😭😭

[moon @moon1scrazy]

I can't weit to eat my noodles today but km going out w friends and idk if we're gonna eat or no and i want my noodles now wahgh

[moon @moon1scrazy]

Like 16kg difference, went from obese to normal weight and I feel the same 😭😭

[moon @moon1scrazy]

I wonder what would my past self from my hw think of my body now

[moon @moon1scrazy]

@xXS7ARXx @housesvicodin_ ALSO I COULDNT FIND THE PIC OF YOURS CAN U DM ME??

[moon @moon1scrazy]

@xXS7ARXx @housesvicodin_ For me showers weren't that much of an issue because I was lucky enough to have some friends back then (fuck these hoes now tho) who helped me patch it up and we got a few layers of bandaids and special strips to keep it closed 😭😭

[moon @moon1scrazy]

My watch disconnected entirely from my phone again and I had to reset it and it deleted an extra 6k steps I'm gonna kms

[moon @moon1scrazy]

@b0nef1res @River_wlw 😭😭😭 congrats on a late 'diagnosis' broski

[moon @moon1scrazy]

@xXS7ARXx @housesvicodin_ FRRR I GEN FELT NO PAIN AT ALL I JUSR SAW TS OPEN LIKE THE GATES OF HELL AND NO MATTER HOW MUCH I HELD IT TOGHEYRR IT DIDNT STOP AND JUST KEPY GOING AND I SAW THE VEIN AND SHI AND EW EW
The pic from it is still fire tho and the scar shrinked but it's still so wide 😭😭