𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻

1.56cm (5ft1) cw: 52kg kg ugw: 45kg // minors dni pls // i just vent and cry a lot in front of the mirror //

[babyangel @babyangelwtx]

There’s no in between . #ed #edrtwtㅤ #edtwtㅤ

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

I have the type of autism where I don’t like the act of eating but I love flavours.

[vivi @mooncatvivi]

is everything just easier for everyone else or am i just super weak and pathetic. why can’t i do things everyone else is able to without issue. am i faking my struggles or are they real. is it all in my head or am i just in my head. how come everyone else is a person but im not

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

I guess making a note on your phone of rules to follow to lose weight again even it js in a healthy way is being back on that ed shit 🫠

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

Trying not to compare myself to the girls that my friends (+guy i am seeing) say that are pretty or hot is a challenge. Because like I wanna kiss them too but then i also wanna stop existing so they will say i am pretty too.

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

I wanna get a walking pad so badly but I feel like my parents wouldn’t allow one in the house

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

I love that the guy I am seeing likes to exercise because now instead of eating out date or things like that we go to the gym together. We still have food related dates buuuut they are less common.

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

If I could control what I eat like I used when I lived alone I would be my gw in a month but noooooo, I gotta live with my parents and have to do it the slow af way.

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

Since I cannot control the amount of food I have for lunch and dinner I make sure that the snack are small

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

Relapsing is so fun so against my therapist advice I am making a list to control another aspect of my life.

[pending (z) @waitingIoading]

cheesy but i like it

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

I skipped class again, I am not that sick anymore, just extremely depressed and I cannot do school rn. Should I move my therapy appointment?

[resa ⋆༶˙⊹ 𝐭𝐰 @aspartameangel]

soup is god tier restriction food it is so filling and comforting and cozy and nutritious

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

I am the problem yes, I am just 3 kg away from my gw and i can’t get it ahahsisnkakqkqpsndhhwkwhdidjwk

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

Back to 49 kgs, being sick and telling my mum i can only have small pieces of food has worked wonders.

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

Once spring arrives and I shed all the baggy clothes people are gonna see all the efforts I put into my body.

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

Also I am back, I thought I had recovered but nope just dormant waiting for sweater and baggy clothers weather to come back and hide how awful my body is.

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

I love being sick because is an amazing excuse to only have soup and eat as little as posible.

[𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 @moon_kg_]

I need to get my ass back in the gym