But despite all the drama and difficulties that this job brings to my life I still like it better than my previous one. Because for the first time in a long period I feel like I do something that matters not only to me, but the other people are recognizing it too.
I was having an argument at work today with a colleague who makes 3x my salary and I thought “Damn, sometimes life is so unfair” Because I needed to explain to him the simplest things as if it wasn’t HIS FUCKING JOB to know this stuff.
@robyn_ineire Yeah, they do. But I just feel that I can’t be really open about stuff even with a professional. It’s like a mental block or whatever. Idk it’s really frustrating.
I start having panic attacks more often even though my life is in a relatively stable condition now. I have a job that I like, loyal friends and perspective. But my mental health has never been worse.
Overall I can say I am happy with my decision this year and the way I handled all the stuff that was happening to me. Emotionally I feel drained and tired tho. My mental health never been worse. But I am working on it.