Sam

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[Sam @moonlavender_]

Hi!

[Sam @moonlavender_]

It feels like forever since my last message here.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

But despite all the drama and difficulties that this job brings to my life I still like it better than my previous one. Because for the first time in a long period I feel like I do something that matters not only to me, but the other people are recognizing it too.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

I was having an argument at work today with a colleague who makes 3x my salary and I thought “Damn, sometimes life is so unfair” Because I needed to explain to him the simplest things as if it wasn’t HIS FUCKING JOB to know this stuff.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

@robyn_ineire Yeah, they do. But I just feel that I can’t be really open about stuff even with a professional. It’s like a mental block or whatever. Idk it’s really frustrating.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

But all jokes aside I DO need therapy. I just don’t know where to start.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

I’m indecisive. How do I choose one? What am I gonna talk about? What if there’s something terribly wrong with me? Questions.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

OR I should get another tattoo lol. Honestly don’t know which option are we choosing

[Sam @moonlavender_]

And I probably should go to a therapist because what I’m doing right now is clearly not enough.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

I start having panic attacks more often even though my life is in a relatively stable condition now. I have a job that I like, loyal friends and perspective. But my mental health has never been worse.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

Is the a cure for minds unwell? Cause my heads a living hell.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

@fileups True

[Sam @moonlavender_]

All of the new songs are freaking amazing but TAAOAFU is just perfection in every word

[Sam @moonlavender_]

I want this song tattooed on my body

[Sam @moonlavender_]

THE LYRICS I can’t

[Sam @moonlavender_]

THE LYRICS I can’t

[Sam @moonlavender_]

Okay but The ancient art of always fucking up - is really a BADASS title for a song

[Sam @moonlavender_]

❤️❤️❤️

[Lewis Capaldi @LewisCapaldi]

a wee update, happy new year x

[Sam @moonlavender_]

If you're a friend of everybody, you're an enemy to yourself.

[Eric Alper 🎧 @ThatEricAlper]

What is your absolutely favorite quote you've heard?

[Sam @moonlavender_]

Anyway I wanna wish a Happy (almost) new year to all of you beautiful people! I know the battles you’re fighting are worth everything ❤️

[Sam @moonlavender_]

Well, it’s almost 2024… I haven’t been active in here for a long time. But it’s been a rough year for sure.

[Sam @moonlavender_]

Overall I can say I am happy with my decision this year and the way I handled all the stuff that was happening to me. Emotionally I feel drained and tired tho. My mental health never been worse. But I am working on it.