Moss 🪴

25 /// i am what i am

[Moss 🪴 @mossunrated]

i am not good at making friends....

[Moss 🪴 @mossunrated]

impulsively drank and now i need to sober up before my bf gets here lmao

[Moss 🪴 @mossunrated]

does anyone else have a pacemaker? i just really feel alone in my life

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guess i'm fighting with my dad again. this person is a stranger im disgusted i share dna with him

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"i'm awful, im unlovable, if i was you I would hate me. i was a terrible child, and I deserve all the bad that has happened and will happen to me. etc." so we will see how he responds.

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my dad won't listen to logic so I'm just gonna start doing to him what he does to me

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he'll text me "no one in my life loves me. everyone just hates me. ETC." He sends paragraphs !!! so I just started doing the same

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The last few times I ve fainted were obviously because of my heart but I also hadn't really eaten much, if anything ...
so now that I have my pacemaker I shouldn't faint even if I restrict

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@puppystarves That makes a lot of sense. I listen to a lot of advice and heed a lot of warnings but it really doesn't feel real til you're there ! Like who knew having a lw would give me more conditions and worsen the ones I already have ! fafo i guess

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@puppystarves suffering from success ... I'm sorry it didn't work though, that was probably very frustrating.
Mine appears to be doing its job 🤷‍♂️

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started medication again so i'm feeling social again... time to come back and be a menace

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@skinnyfelony no literally !! like that's just some dude ... I've met people with voices that should fill a venue and they're just people.

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@puppystarves I'm a little in shock. I've never fainted before my adult life but I've also never restricted as hard in my life than when I was 22 and older. I'm worried I've caused this and I can't tell anyone because then they'll know I have an 3D

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@puppystarves I'm curious on how a pacemaker helps with urinary retention but that's really interesting! I'm sorry it wasn't successful but I'm glad they tried something to help. How was the recovery?

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Who wants to see a picture of the incision site from my pacemaker surgery ????

I'll post it in the comments and I'll flag it so i don't flash someone hehe

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i'm actually getting a pacemaker put in

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i think im going to have to commit to full recovery. i fainted again and now im in the hospital AGAIN

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@pjjmoonchild I squeeze in my ribs too when I suck in + it helps with posture