nell;

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[nell; @mostly10]

I finished my Dice Witch @thisistommckay portrait in time for stockholm 🙏
we all know that his powers may be too strong for @oathsandempires 😂

[nell; @mostly10]

@vancilart you did what now

[nell; @mostly10]

@Casiferia_ addsajaahgaahja what the 😂😂😂

[nell; @mostly10]

@ZengDeng32 he's so pretty 😭

[nell; @mostly10]

@NitaElwyArt 😭 thank you so much that's incredibly kind of you to say. 🫂🫂🫂

[nell; @mostly10]

@natbatcosplay I am very pleased with The Bit actually. gotta think of something equally cursed for the next con..

[nell; @mostly10]

I still have to post this bc... yeah, the shirt is ridiculous... I kinda love it.

(I didn't gift the mug, also an epic gift though)

[nell; @mostly10]

@EveNarasi 😂 perfect

[nell; @mostly10]

@Fountain1403

[nell; @mostly10]

@bonkm0nster thsnk you ketch. if only they knew you're the reason I'm even here to annoy everyone. 😉
🫶

[nell; @mostly10]

today luke wore the shirt I made him. it was also one of the lowest days in this fandom so far. it's left me feeling a bit raw and frayed around the edges.
I own my faults, I don't claim perfection. I try to show how that I care (bc I do). and I don't hold grudges or lash out.

[nell; @mostly10]

@Mage_Lufaine I mean... 😂 it absolutely isn't beautiful. but it's very funny, and that's what matters.

[nell; @mostly10]

@richiecrispie thanks rizz. 🫶

[nell; @mostly10]

@incarnatuss I'm not sure if I want to know now tbh. I just want it to stop. 😔

[nell; @mostly10]

@Mage_Lufaine 🥹 me too mage. 🫶

[nell; @mostly10]

don't* deserve this space

[nell; @mostly10]

right now it feels like there's one or more individuals who are actively trying to push me out of this little corner of the fandom I found. who feel like I deserve this space, even when all I do is try. try to belong, try to spread cheer, try to encourage, try to lighten.

[nell; @mostly10]

@richiecrispie

[nell; @mostly10]

tell me directly. I won't lash out, I won't deny or deflect. I will own that shit and do whatever I can to make it right.

ask any of my friends. anyone who really knows me. I own, I learn, I do better. but you have to talk to me as an adult.

please stop, that's all I'm asking.

[nell; @mostly10]

not because I've done anything wrong, but because I feel surveilled, stalked, judged, and hated from the shadows. I don't deserve to feel like this. I deserve to be approached like an adult. if I've hurt anyone, offended anyone, made anyone uncomfortable... call me out.