glossy eyes with no life behind them, flushed lips parted just enough for a peek of his teeth, perfect blood splatter...even in death he's the prettiest thing ever
FUCK YOU CASTIEL I HOPE YOURE HAPPY FUCK BENNY FUCK SAM FUCK CROWLEY FUCK LUCIFER FUCK JOHN FUCK BALTHAZAR FUCK CLARK KENT FUCK JASON TODD AND FUCK CASTIEL AGAIN
wait dean who builds himself according to the expectations! but it never quite lands. no matter how much he doubles down on the macho act,no matter how well he wears aggression and bravado, there’s always that sense that he’s being graded against a standard he can’t fully reach
@deanwuke him posturing (“overcompensating”) bc how’s he supposed to be The Protector his father raised him like this? it’s what he’s supposed to do. what alphas naturally do. meanwhile omegas are capable of the most terrifying, self-sacrificial protectiveness imaginable. which dean IS
omega dean who refuses to use any toys to take the edge off his heat bc That’s Not How Real Men Deal With Things and is determined to endure every miserable second until exhaustion and instinct strip away any coherent thought and he’s reduced to this
“you said you’re a big brother. you’d take care of your little brother? you’d do anything for him?”
“yeah, i would.”
the epitome of dean. taking care of his baby brother is all he wants to be. not do, but be. his sense of self. he is sam’s protector, his shield and loaded gun.
dean winchester, who was more a gaping wound than a little boy. who became a mother, a father, a brother, and the wound only grew wider and deeper and older. dean winchester who never got to just be.