There should be a website where you post your wishes and needs, and rich people who don’t know what to do with their money can anonymously give you the gift.
Girl to girl: be that girl again.
Get disciplined again. Take care of yourself again. Eat better & move your body again. Oil your edges & drink your water again. Start praying & reading your Bible again. Get your money up and sleep 8 hours again. Find your spark and put yourself first.