How sweet to look in the mirror and recognize that the hand of the Lord is forever on my life. Despite my efforts to remove it or run away from it. As I begin to get ready to turn 42 this year, my desire is transform more.
The word transform in the greek (metamorphoo) means to change into another form. Through out my life Christ has continued to transform me into something new. Nothing compares or is better than being transformed by Christ. The man I was yesterday is not the same man I am today.
Part eight: like there are moments where I think about suicide. So at these times is where I hear God so clearly. But when I get out that darkness I feel good so, I put God on the bench. Or after I committed sin, then I am so need of forgiveness.
Free today. I can start working being healed from my past, pain, fear, shame, and guilt. I had a wrestling match with God and will be blessed from it. I am not sure what that will look like but it is coming. Thank you for listening to me. Not sure if this will
Part seven: starts. At night, because if it was during the day, Jacob would of try scheming again. So that me God can only get a hold of me at night or at my darkest moment. So I struggle with depression, with that struggle come some pretty dark moments.