I know that I’ve been slacking for the last few months, and it’s not even me personally but I’ve been dealing with a lot of stuff involving my family..
I know what you guys want, and I’m pretty sure I have a good idea of how the future should go, but as I said it’s been super tough with the people in my life.
I don’t know, maybe it’s just the “teenage” thing but I’ve just been really bummed because I know I should be posting more, I know I should be doing more for you guys, it’s so rough when anyone says it because I completely understand. I get it.
I’m not sad or anything like that, but I have been a lot in the last two or three months, and it’s because of family stuff. I’m just a sensitive dude and stuff gets to me some times, and I’m not talking about hate comments, I mean personal stuff.
oh and I DO NOT WANT TO TAKE A BREAK HAHA there’s been more than enough “breaks” coming from my family hahahaha 😂 I need to get on my game and I’m trying to work something out with my mom so that I can do more for you guys ♥️I promise
hate seeing you guys leave and I hate seeing you guys unhappy more than anything in the world. I’m not ignoring any issues, I see the international supporters and I see the supporters that are in the US. There’s so much that I need to take care of.
I’m trying so so hard to work on myself and becoming a better person overall, but I’m 16 and there’s still limits and boundaries to what I can do as a kid ): I guess I’m just asking you guys to work with me and give me a little more time.
my minds always racing and I’m always trying to figure out what the answer is, I don’t want to let anyone down, I want to be a smart kid who makes you guys the happiest, and I want to be productive and most importantly I want to make memories
All I have is my mom and my brothers and you can see how well that’s going /: I really just need family and that’s so hard to say, but I just can’t make excuses anymore for this kinda stuff. I don’t really have any friends, I really feel like I don’t have a family.