This is free advice from an expensive psychologist.
If you're an anxious person, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Anxiety feeds on importance. Don't make everything a matter of life and death.
@draambuiee man eu queria ir mas nem tinha ninguém entao nem comprei bilhete, agora andava a ver revendas aqui no twitter mas fico bué desconfiada😭 se eu acabar por comprar e quiseres companhia ill show up hahah
in the middle of eating just burtted out a "i hate eating here" knowing i was the one that asked to come, mind u this is the type of person that buys 3 kinds of salt and swallows 5 health supplements every night so i dont need the reminder of superiority complex thanks <3