Gay Romani God

I'm not always sad sometimes I'm horny too

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

Well the third pic is purple kinda ruined the aesthetic but it's cute

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

Sad blue boy, sad blue world

(Ignore the hand if you're one of the 12 people who will see this)

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

Need to get bigger get prettier go to big city find man love n peace within me

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

Thinking of posting pics here but I'm scared of the attention (I don't get any attention at all so I'm in a prison and I have the keys ig

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

Unbreakable beauty
Invisible beings
So hard to admit it

Through a dark hall at dawn
Through a table with a golden feast
Through a face to the fist
In my wretched mind
You're the only thing in it

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

@Sable_theye Ty I'll think about it it's just hard to be intimate yk especially online but I don't think you'll judge soo I'll talk myself into it

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

There's something impure with my lust I have a bad heart

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

@Sable_theye Thanks dude you're so great
I do think that if I just talk about it I'll feel better cause when I talk to myself I come to the conclusion that it's stupid and I ignore it until it hits me again

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

@Sable_theye Honestly this is very vague and hard to understand. I'm just comparing myself to others I think, so I never just let myself desire something completely without thinking "what about this other thing that you don't desire? Why don't you?"

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

@Sable_theye I'm exaggerating a bit, but there are some desires that everyone has and I don't. My problem is not knowing if I'm stopping myself from having those. If I am, I hate myself for doing it
If I'm not, I hate that I thought about this

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

@Sable_theye Wow oomf you're so smart

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

@Sable_theye Ohh it makes so much sense. And bcs I'm Romani I've never felt "normal " maybe that's why I don't feel it as much

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

@jjiimmyyyyyy Caring about someone is good do it without shame

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

Turn my back and stab it
No more second chances
That's just my bad habits

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

Like I'm too old and I've been gay for too long to be like this

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

Had a dream where the school bus was like just a line and drove itself (kinda like a roller coaster) and I asked a girl to change seats with me because a was in the front and she did it but she looked at me weird is this me being afraid of not being masculine enough?
Weird

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

So many doubts no one to ask
When I talk to myself I only hear the things I like. Maybe that's the truth? Maybe I just want to believe it is

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

It might be selfish to put that weight on someone else but I think only a boyfriend can rewire my brain and make me a bit more normal

I want that a lot but at the same time I wish I could be enough

[Gay Romani God @mudgreenboy]

I keep on doing the same things expecting different results
The ones I got aren't the ones I want