@starsmoonandsun 12th- and i have just finished getting a new bed and making my bedroom feel more cozy. And my partner is leaving for a trip and i don’t have a lot of friends. and i’ve been feeling more depressed 💪
@supermoongirl9 i have these exact placements — i despise the venus uranus opp but maybe.. it gets rid of all the noise of the ppl who don’t belong. isolating and jarring but ultimately (sometimes) a good thing i’m trying to Cope.
and put their health at risk at all. i fucking still mask for gods sake. it was my own fault for getting it to a degree but why didn’t the fucking hygienists tell me?! what the fuck.
if i had ever known this was a communicable disease i quite literally would have stopped dating. if i had known it was auto immune based i would have moved so differently. and now i kind of love someone and !? the last thing i’ve ever wanted was to hurt someone
and like i literally want to just end the relationship so i don’t have to worry about like sharing saliva. and it’s so ducking sad bro bc i love to kiss and now i’m like not able to? idk i need to call my dental hygienist but i’m so sad.
been crying all night feeling like shit and anxious out the wazoo. and also like maybe ppl don’t want to kiss me or date me and i don’t want to kiss them bc i can trigger their immune system to start eating their own bones?!?!
i feel disgusted by myself and it feels like the person i’m seeing now who was with me when i found it is contagious is disgusted by me. they literally went and rebrushed their teeth?
bro no one told me periodontal disease was fucking contagious? and now i literally feel like a leper (in the most non ability way i totally mean this societally) i’m thinking about all the ppl i’ve kissed and like put at risk? i guess? i feel honestly
gross
@live_mke @nu_mindframe totally fine perspective to have to b able to fully move on & respect yourself. but it is a personal experience
& a large majority of ppl just find it harder to fully remove oneself from an intense betrayal. i’m glad ur able to love yourself. pain is a subjective experience