breezy scoff slips past her lips, acknowledging, lighter through the rawness. tension uncoils, a little at a time, coaxed by the warmth of him at her back alone— she hums, noncommittal, distant in how she ₊
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silence stretched between them , thin as breath and heavy as thought . darius watched the curve of her back , the tension gathered tight in her shoulders , the faint ghost of 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𖤠
false , fragile . already cracking at the seams . ⤸
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her vision is already used to the dark. or maybe she could tell him apart from anything. one nod, slow and curt, considering his words. it takes a while before she says something back. “ ..do you ever ₊
i give myself to you. i long for you; i who usually long without longing, as though i am unconscious and absorbed in neutrality and apathy, really, utterly long for every bit of you.
the air hangs thick with it: fear, indeed. something residual reborn through marrow and memory alike, not new but renewed. centuries, it appears, scouring the same wound again and again and again. she hears ₊
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true sleep was a rarity . mind and body brimming with a barely contained rage . no , it was only in her * 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒 that the blessing of rest could be accepted .
it was because of her cooling aura … the darkness she harboured that so perfectly balanced ⤸
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comes thin, a little too small. not on purpose by any means. she doesn’t even turn. can’t. if she were to do it, the weight would surely shift, slip, get uglier. rachel swallows and tries for softer, ₊
it’s the middle of the night. jolted awake, rachel sits, heart hammering against her ribs, pain shooting through her skull. the nightmare— no, the augury— dragged her up out of sleep, horrors still clawing ₊
she takes it all in: bedroom, bunched bedding pooled across her lap, a warm body beside her rattled one. big windows. citylights spilled on the floor. she moves before she can think, ghostlike, shuffling ₊