i'm sorry for not understanding you, for making things harder instead of easier. sorry for the arguments, the silence, the things i said and didn't say. i hate that i became someone who hurt you.
no, im not okay. i wanna talk to you so bad. i miss you so fucking much rn. i miss our conversations. i miss how we used to talk everyday. i miss the way you treated me when we first started talking.
I miss how easy it was in the beginning.
You wanted to talk to me, you looked for reasons to see me, you made me feel like I was someone you couldn't lose.
I never had to wonder if you cared.
Now I look back and miss a version of you that probably doesn't exist anymore.
I miss how you used to like me in the beginning how you'd reply instantly, compliment me constantly, and find any excuse to be near me. You made me feel wanted, beautiful, and special every single day. Can't we go back to that? To when it felt like I was everything to you?