mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ

🍾 shedtwt bpdtwt alctwt ★ autistic ★ bmi 18s ★ pl/eng
a fucked up online diary xpp

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

mvlu's intro ★༻
٭☆ shedtwt, bpdtwt, alctwt

༅ 21 they/them aroace
༅ diagnosed autism & bpd with aspd traits
༅ special interests: neuropsychiatry and human sciences
༅ i fw anime/manga/games/etc. loser-shit-core
༅ i vent a LOT, im disgusting & problematic too ദ്ദി(,> ᵕ ˂ )

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

reminds me of how i was 12 and my mother's found out i cut myself and she was like "so maybe i will slit my wrists now, huh?" 🫩

[⋆˚꩜｡ @314159265358zy]

“if u cut urself again, i will too” ??????? fuck die

[pinkie @pinkamaniaa]

does anyone know what the first step of unlearning shame is. please say substance abuse

[feelings ღ @eternaltxts]

i torture myself everyday by not ending my life

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

okay i smoked, life is better now

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

i don't care, i'll steal some money from my mother. i'm not doing a sober week, oh hell naw, i would bore myself to death.

[sploon @Tropical_Sploon]

how i feel everytime i get told im an alcoholic

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

i just can't care enough about my friends. they're just. there. i don't feel the need to ask them to hang out or see how they're doing. i don't feel the need to check on them. if they're there, it's nice, i'll spend time with them. but i won't go out of my way to check on them.

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

this boredom is UNBEARABLE

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

okay so. can you at least elaborate and not just. drop ts unprompted.

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

everyone just hates it when i have fun

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

my plug is ignoring me 😭😭 even my plug don't want me bruh

[yup @SWEETERcroutons]

when you realize you’re genuinely a horrible person

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

killing yourself on new years also is so. poetic. new year new me!!!

welp, we'll see how things will go down.

[mvlu*｡✿ * ﾟ @mvlumvg]

okay im debating on late september and new years. i kinda don't wanna start uni again and. i wonder how people from psych day unit would've felt if they found out i committed.
but i still have a quite few books to finish and i finally need to play hundred line!!!

[𓏼 ͜͜✚ AB ⊹ @wastedpulse]

I hope I find the courage to kill myself

[turigirl Ron 202x @DirectoryMemory]

Does anyone feel like this too