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they/them - 23 y/o - 155cm - cw: 48 kg - gw: 42kg - ugw: 37kg - MINORS DNI !

[max ツ @mwarigold]

restricting is so hard when im with my boyfriend. he wants to eat all the fucking time !!!!

[max ツ @mwarigold]

@kaane0 1200. its the best

[max ツ @mwarigold]

slaaaay

[max ツ @mwarigold]

guys im offivialy 48kg LETS GOOO

[max ツ @mwarigold]

i have a crush on a boy... i think it might be mutual... but im too fat to get into a relationship yet...

[max ツ @mwarigold]

was on a hiking trip for 8 days, where i was walking 30km every other day and eating barely nothing and im below 50 kg now :3333 i cant let it go to waste. lets speed run to at least 46 kg 😇

[max ツ @mwarigold]

how am i supposed to have a social life and lose weight at the same time this is HELL

[max ツ @mwarigold]

was at the cinema today ans tell me how THE FUCK a medium popcorn is more than 1000 kcal this is hell. good thing i didnt eat anything else today beside a protein bar

[max ツ @mwarigold]

my bff starts to worry about my eating again but i havent started for real yet ???

[max ツ @mwarigold]

bought macrofactor subscription. maybe it will keep me motivated 😭

[max ツ @mwarigold]

why is everyone around me thinner than me. almost every single person. and when they arent, they are still better looking. this is madness

[max ツ @mwarigold]

i have an impossible battle of finishing easter food before it goes bad (i hate throwing food out) and staying in my limit. but i think the battle will be over in 2 days

[max ツ @mwarigold]

i think i need to write more on paper. then its a fundamental proof of my efforts. i will start a physical log.

[max ツ @mwarigold]

i need to finally get it together. im either good or dead. why would i deserve to live if im a bad person.

[max ツ @mwarigold]

@cceribus if u make one pls add me !

[max ツ @mwarigold]

i need to go on until i dont feel hatred for others. until its no longer weighing me down. when im light im free

[max ツ @mwarigold]

i need to be skinny so i can finally be a good person. envy is poison. i need to be thin so i can finally feel some relief. i need this on a spiritual level almost. i cannot be a good person unless im thin. i want to be a good person so badly

[max ツ @mwarigold]

everyone is so skinny except me. its suffocating. one more person say im small and i will COMBUST. im too short to be weighing that much. i cant handle looking at skinny people. my greed sickens me. im so jelous its a poison. im evil to the bone

[max ツ @mwarigold]

mantaining 1300-1600 kcal range. i got used to it so hopefully i will lower it soon to around 1200-1400. its not that low but im too old for this shit LMAO

[nev @goldenlaboobie]

no thanks, don’t want food don’t need it. too much to read and maybe learn, i’m all fired and wired up up. busy making the most of what i’ve made myself thus far. i deserve little but i can earn anything.

good morning and do something today friend