Neuroplasticity exists. If you don't like your life or career as an adult you can just learn new things. As long as you aren't an idiot and plan things long term, you can try your hand at pretty much anything that doesn't require the body of a teenager / early 20s athleticism.
nothing can be felt forever. even if you want to. you’d be surprised the magnitude of what can pass through you. how much big grand or terrifying or heartbreaking life can become a routine story
i do not have to be good i do not have to walk on my knees for a hundred miles through the desert repenting i only have to let the soft animal of my body love what it loves