Hey everyone. Below is my gambling story. I changed my username for personal reasons. I am starting to get suicidal thoughts. The initial message was sent to Koshiek but he didn't reply. I've sent messages to 5 big accounts only few replied.
Hey everyone. Below is my gambling story. I changed my username for personal reasons. I am starting to get suicidal thoughts. The initial message was sent to Koshiek but he didn't reply. I've sent messages to 5 big accounts only few replied.
@YANDISA__A I've tried to get myself killed last year because I didn't want to commit suicide. I did a lot of things that would get me killed like roaming around at night with my phone so I could be stabbed and killed but instead I lost my phone.
I have submitted my email to ask remove my profile and disallow the ability to register on any gambling site. I hope people will see that I am not trying to scam them for money.
Hey everyone. Below is my gambling story. I changed my username for personal reasons. I am starting to get suicidal thoughts. The initial message was sent to Koshiek but he didn't reply. I've sent messages to 5 big accounts only few replied.
@YANDISA__A I'm seriously having a meltdown. But I won't tell my family or friends. I don't want to be embarrassed. People think I am trying to finesse or scam them because I mentioned donations. I just want to be well that's all. I don't want my school to call my parents.
My friends know me as a person with money currently as I had already told and shown them before I could withdraw. Now I have nothing to show for. I told a lie to everyone.
My head is buzzing. The reality that I'm stupid is starting to get loud than when it was whispering. I am hoping that I will get help and be connected with authentic jobs or works that I can do that will alive me.
I've sent the same text to Lesedi (Hybrid), Karabeast and Chris Excel yesterday. I was afraid to tell the truth I told Lesedi not to post it as I was asking for his help so I can attention from the public. But it seems like my thoughts are drowning me.
Many have probably came across this screenshot, yes it was and I was afraid to come out and seek for help. I tagged the screenshot with a Back a Buddy link before but it didn't get any reach.
At this point, I have pushed myself into a more desperate situation. I'm there at the corner. It's not wise to get on the internet and tell the whole world your problems but if it means getting help then I will.
Now the reality starts to kick. I can't even focus on anything. I put myself on a huge pressure. I wouldn't like my father and my family to find out about this. I have truly destroyed myself and relationships around me without even realising while I was at it.