Christian Javier

Just putting my thoughts and some song lyrics out into the vast emptiness of Twitter. Life isn’t always going to be easy…or hard.

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Anxiet(pee): when you have to go to the toilet while you are the next in queue on a phone call, worrying if you have enough time to finish or they answer mid stream.

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I do love an edible though.

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Okay. Bakfiets stolen. Ebb and flow.

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I’ve been half sick for years.

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At least I stopped the joints. It’s only been two weeks. But I’m half sick and hate how it smells.

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Im trying my fucking best. But I am only human.

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Moving out. New job. Divorce. House. All happing in a 12 month period.

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Continue to crawl from this whole I have built.

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Summer is here. Time to breath.

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It is sometimes nice to scream into the void. Happy and sad screams.

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Haha. I clearly don’t know how to thread. But no one reads this anyways. So it doesn’t really matter.

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I hope whoever took it makes good use of it.

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He will be disappointed because motor and break are fucked. But the skateboard and pump too?!

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Why do people do things out of hatred. Maybe the person who stole my bike took it out of necessity.

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I love my job and am good at it , but will probably fuck that up at somepoint. As per usual……

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But fuck. These past couple years drained me emotionally, physically, financially.

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At least I am not suicidal anymore. I couldn’t do that to the kids.

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But sometimes I feel like I am drowning. I have been dealt a shit hand for a lot of my life.

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But fuck I try to do right. I just want to share love and positivity.

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Maybe I deserve it. I haven’t always made the best decisions.