ena

🩸‘tell me light, from the moment you were born has there ever been a point where you actually told the truth’ | age 21

[ena @mymelodena]

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[ena @mymelodena]

if anyone’s curious they’re fucked up from walking on untreated bone breaks for days, and running. running probably did most of the damage. tbh.

[ena @mymelodena]

i bought some toe straighters and it’s the first time i’ve really processed how fucked up my feet are, like i can’t even FEEL my toes when i’m pulling them through the holes and they barely fit cus of the angle everything’s at 😭

[ena @mymelodena]

i kinda hate them everytime i put my foot down i get like a tingle in my ankle that’s like, yeah sometimes out of place here but i can’t feeeel it uegh but worst of all it is actually helping the chronic pain in said ankle so.

[ena @mymelodena]

i bought some toe straighters and it’s the first time i’ve really processed how fucked up my feet are, like i can’t even FEEL my toes when i’m pulling them through the holes and they barely fit cus of the angle everything’s at 😭

[ena @mymelodena]

i bought some toe straighters and it’s the first time i’ve really processed how fucked up my feet are, like i can’t even FEEL my toes when i’m pulling them through the holes and they barely fit cus of the angle everything’s at 😭

[ena @mymelodena]

i can’t believe i was on the brink of being the most well rested ever and it was ruined.

[ena @mymelodena]

i napped and i’m so verge of renap but i need to peeeee and i don’t wanna go down eeebrhjj this is horrible this is the worst

[ena @mymelodena]

@mysterifairy88 dew it 🔥

[ena @mymelodena]

i love constellations and im ancient, evidently

[; shal 🤍 @nonangelicangel]

:p tbh i dont have that many characters

[ena @mymelodena]

but no soup for me 💔 no eat 💔 anoreixa 💔

[ena @mymelodena]

tofu soup

[ena @mymelodena]

more soup?

[ena @mymelodena]

psychics fear me i’ve once again done something that’s really convenient for a future event with no possible way to know that would happen

[ena @mymelodena]

ykno what sucks, i don’t think my actual capacity for learning or knowledge has been negatively impacted by being malnourished. but there’s this general blankness like things just don’t have any meaning unless i TRY to think, even numbers don’t hold value, its making me dumber.

[ena @mymelodena]

i was once attacked by a woman named alexander hamilton, the voices tell me, while i’m playing the nod krai theme in my head

[ena @mymelodena]

@carnalgarnish having them made me realise what people mean when they describe scars as knots

[ena @mymelodena]

i think the thing is, sometimes i have advice for people here and it’s not necessarily bad advice but it usually is mean and i don’t think i should be saying things like that. i like that i don’t say things like that, even if its frustrating to watch people fail obvious hurdles

[ena @mymelodena]

it feels like maybe. my brain is like a lock. you know when you turn the key and sometimes it didn’t feel right like your one too many right turns and it turns into a puzzle that’s physically impossible to fix but mentally feels very straightforward. that’s how my brain feels

[ena @mymelodena]

if i can’t sleep ever again my calories will never reset

[ena @mymelodena]

@faux11ennium pfps with white fuzzy borders are so good there’s something so captivating about it..

[ena @mymelodena]

@carnalgarnish green tea 🤤

[ena @mymelodena]

day 3(?) no caffeine i’m dizzy from how tired i am but have i believe, lost the capabilities to switch my brain off i am troubled