Yesterday, a dream of mine came true: I skydived from 15,000 feet above the Namibian desert and the Atlantic Ocean.
I’ve been to many places and experienced many incredible things, but nothing comes close to the feeling I had while skydiving.
The last frame is a photo of me after I landed.
In that moment, you could have convinced me that I was an astronaut returning from a mission in space.
I was still trying to process what had just happened and the fact that something so beautiful could exist.
I don’t know if I’ll ever read as much as I did in my late teens and early twenties.
In hindsight, I understand why.
I was carrying a level of pain I didn’t know how to put into words. I was dealing with a huge wave of depression.
By then, I had gone through childbirth alone at 17, lost my mother, been separated from my son, and started university, all in the same year.
Books became more than entertainment, they became company.
Every page reminded me that I wasn’t the first person to suffer, to feel lost, or to question whether life would ever get better.
In the lives of strangers, both real and fictional, I found pieces of myself.
Those books couldn’t change what had happened to me, but they changed how I carried it.
Reading saved me.
I’ve just come out of my second 10 day Vipassana meditation retreat.
For those who aren’t familiar with it, Vipassana is a silent meditation retreat where you spend 12 to 14 hours each day meditating.
There are no phones, no social media, no conversations, and no contact with the outside world. For ten days, your only task is to observe your mind to understand it, to see it as it truly is.
In many ways, it is an invitation to live out the ancient wisdom: “Know thyself.”
Logging back onto social media was a jarring experience.
I couldn’t help but notice how much of my feed was filled with violence, tragedy, outrage, and fear.
It made me realize just how much negativity we consume every single day without even noticing it.
It takes stepping away completely to recognize what has slowly become normal.
Beloveds, guard your heart with all diligence.
Meditation is God’s gift to humanity.
As the world moves through its endless motions and life unfolds around us, there is a place deep within where you can simply rest.
There is no greater joy than discovering that sanctuary within yourself.