i knew talking about my own situation to people who were willing to listen was a bad idea, but
there's someone trying to say that my problem with the zeal situation is that i got fired, when the issue was that he fired me without telling anyone why, cutting me off from everyone i was friends with by telling them something vague about me (i.e. "Wenda did something bad"), and when people speculated thinking i was a predator, i tried to take it upon myself to try and inform people, but i inevitably got details wrong, and zeal took it as a slight. Not once did I ever say that zeal was in the wrong to fire me for the reasons he did, but he cut me off from a majority of my friends, labeled me as a harasser when I had been ghosted for months, ignored, left to continue trying to contact people who told me it'd be okay to continue trying to contact them. And that's what affected me more than anything else in this situation.
I was alone for a majority of the time that I had been isolated, and it even caused me to hurt people myself in attempts to seek comfort from people.
People ask to know about the situation, and link to Zeal's post framing me as a harasser. The post intended to make me look terrible in the first place. I never did this alongside Ren to make claims against zeal, I only talked about it because it's what he did to me. And I know I'm not the only one with this problem or experience. It's just the environment of people who want Zeal to be innocent are more willing to listen to Zeal's words despite how twisted they are to make people look poor than to admit he was capable of doing awful things to people below him.
Even when asking him what he'll say publicly regarding my dismissal and firing, since people were WONDERING, his only answer to me was "I don't know." Clearly, he didn't want to or didn't know how to frame my firing in a way where nobody would bat an eye, question, or think something was off. I was being a thorn in Hytoko's side due to my personal dealings with Forsaken at the time, and he didn't want any further issues with them so he cut the least important part of his life, and that was me.
I'm not a saint, never will be, but I have a clear experience with Zeal that I wanted to share not to dogpile on Zeal but to be able to share my experience at a time where people are more willing to hear out my side of the story where I had (and still am) been dealing with chronic major depressive disorder, CPTSD, chronic allergies, and my lowest point of self-esteem where I hardly ever wanted to do anything.
still not over how back when everything initially blew up with pressure people genuinely thought it was appropriate and normal to make parody accounts of zerum and zeal. like why did u guys do that 😭