I got into another fight with my mom.
She spent about forty minutes on the phone, the whole point being that I’m wasting time with a man who isn’t divorced. I told her it wasn’t her business. She started going through old arguments, saying I’ve never listened, that no decent family would wait for someone already married. I hung up. Sat on the sofa for ten minutes, then booked a ticket to Park Hyatt Changbai Mountain. I had already planned to ski. The timing just worked. I know I look good. I also know I like sex. This time I really just wanted to get away.
The flight landed in the afternoon. The hotel car took twenty minutes into the resort. Birch and pine on both sides, snow piled thick. I dropped my bags, changed, and went straight to the outdoor pool. It faces the slopes. You can watch the lifts during the day. Outside it was well below freezing. The steam hit and my hair was wet immediately.
The pool is small, mineral water, a little over forty degrees. I sat at the edge, half in the water, steam softening the snow opposite. Not many people. A couple, a few men. I closed my eyes against the wall and let my hand drift under the surface. After ten or fifteen minutes my fingers touched something.
Not a leg. Hard, thick, moving.
I froze. I couldn’t see underwater, but I knew what it was. He seemed to pause too, then it pressed forward again and slid across my palm. I pulled my hand back. My heart was loud. I didn’t look up. When I opened my eyes the man across from me was looking at his phone like nothing had happened. Solid build, short hair, early thirties. I stayed a little longer and left.
The next day I skied. Park Hyatt has its own ski house, so you swipe straight onto Little White Tiger. After two intermediate runs I was waiting for the lift when someone spoke beside me.
“Yesterday in the hot spring. Was that you?”
I turned. It was him. Black ski suit, helmet off, clearer than he had been in the steam, light stubble. I didn’t confirm or deny. He said his name was Chen Haoran, here with two friends, staying at the Hyatt. I said I was alone at Park Hyatt. He asked how I was skiing. I said average, just clearing my head. He didn’t push. He said if I was free later we could have dinner with his friends.
I added him.
That night we met at a local restaurant in the resort. He brought Zhou Zixuan and Li Mingzhe, both from Beijing, both clearly training. We ordered sour cabbage pork, ginseng chicken soup, iron-pot fish. He didn’t mention the pool. He asked why I was traveling alone. I said I’d fought with my family about marriage and needed space. He nodded. Zhou Zixuan talked more, asked what I did. I said freelance. He joked that my time must be flexible. Li Mingzhe mostly listened. I know how I look. Their eyes were direct. I didn’t start anything.
Halfway through dinner the snow got heavier. Chen Haoran looked outside and said the road would be bad this late, they still had drinks in the room, we could sit for a while until it eased. Zhou Zixuan added that we didn’t need to sleep early if we were skiing tomorrow. I’d already had two glasses. I said yes. The wind was strong when we left. They walked ahead. Chen Haoran turned once and told me to go slow.
In the room they opened wine. Zhou Zixuan put a movie on. No one watched it. Chen Haoran sat beside me and asked if the hot spring had startled me. I drank instead of answering. He reached over, tucked my hair behind my ear, and left his fingers on my earlobe for a second. I didn’t move. Li Mingzhe set a glass of water on the table and the back of his hand brushed my knee. The room settled.
I was blank for a while afterward. Full. My body still reacting. My legs wouldn’t hold me when I tried to stand. They didn’t say much. They just lay there catching their breath. I know I like sex. I know how I look. Being taken by three of them for that long still went further than I expected.
We woke after ten. Chen Haoran asked if I still wanted to ski. I said yes. They showed me how to control speed on the intermediate runs. Zhou Zixuan took me past the terrain park. We ate at the restaurant on the mountain, then soaked at Hanan Mountain hot springs in the afternoon. That evening they wanted to feed the reindeer, so we took a car to the snow ridge park. The animals were calm. We fed them carrots and took photos. On the way back Li Mingzhe sat beside me with his hand on my thigh and didn’t speak.
The next day we did the rime ice rafting. It was cold. The trees on both sides of the river were completely white. Afterward they took me on a short snow hike near the hotel. We saw a few squirrels. That night I went back to Park Hyatt. They didn’t stay. Chen Haoran kissed me once at the elevator and said to contact him if I came back.
I showered in my room. My legs were still sore. There were missed calls from Lion. I didn’t return them. Outside the snow was still falling and the lift lights blinked. I opened Chen Haoran’s chat and didn’t send anything. I know I look good. I know I like sex. I really only came to clear my head. I didn’t expect this.
Chen Haoran kissed me first. He didn’t push me down. He just leaned in and asked if it was okay. I nodded. Zhou Zixuan watched, then rested a hand on my shoulder and moved it lower. Li Mingzhe stayed opposite and watched. They didn’t rush the clothes. Kissing first, hands over the sweater. I lifted the hem myself. Chen Haoran’s hand went under and closed around my breast, fingers sinking in, rolling the nipple until it was hard and sore. Zhou Zixuan undid my pants and slid his hand inside, pressing where I was already wet. I closed my legs a little and didn’t really stop him.
Chen Haoran carried me to the bed and spread my legs. He was fully hard, thicker than my hand could close around, veins raised, the head red and swollen. He didn’t push in right away. He dragged the head up and down between my lips, coating himself in me until the entrance was slick and sensitive, then drove in all the way. I made a sound. The stretch was immediate. He pulled back and the wet sound followed. While he fucked me he bent down and bit my nipple, licking and sucking until the skin was red and swollen, the flesh moving under his fingers. Zhou Zixuan knelt by my head and pushed into my mouth, hitting the back of my throat. Chen Haoran stayed inside me and said low, “Deeper. When you touched it in the pool yesterday, did you already want this?” I could only make noise around Zhou Zixuan, spit running from the corner of my mouth.
They switched. Zhou Zixuan took me from behind, fast, each thrust landing on my ass with a wet slap. His hand reached under and rubbed my clit while he asked if I liked being fucked by three of them and told me to stop holding it in. Li Mingzhe watched and stroked himself, then moved up so I could take him in my mouth. Chen Haoran reached from the side, squeezing my breast until it spilled between his fingers, then lowered his head to the other one and bit lightly. They kept rotating. I was full, hot, the mix of them and me running down my thighs and onto the sheets.
Around two in the morning they had me on my knees and took turns from behind. Chen Haoran went first, deep enough that I felt it low in my stomach, the head pressing all the way in. He said low, “Don’t hold it. When you touched me in the pool, were you already wet? This tight, how long has it been?” I made a sound. Zhou Zixuan followed, faster, slapping my ass until it was hot and red, asking if I liked being fucked until my legs gave out, if I liked three of them. Li Mingzhe was slower but stayed buried, grinding at the deepest point while his hand worked my clit and my breast. I came more than once. My legs stopped holding me. They turned me over and kept going, sometimes two at once, one underneath and one in my mouth, or from behind and the side together. By a little after five I couldn’t continue. My stomach was sore, the entrance swollen and numb, and they finally stopped.
The next day we did the rime ice rafting. It was cold. The trees on both sides of the river were completely white. Afterward they took me on a short snow hike near the hotel. We saw a few squirrels. That night I went back to Park Hyatt. They didn’t stay. Chen Haoran kissed me once at the elevator and said to contact him if I came back.
I showered in my room. My legs were still sore. There were missed calls from Lion. I didn’t return them. Outside the snow was still falling and the lift lights blinked. I opened Chen Haoran’s chat and didn’t send anything. I know I like sex. I really only came to clear my head. I didn’t expect this.
Chen Haoran kissed me first. He didn’t push me down. He just leaned in and asked if it was okay. I nodded. Zhou Zixuan watched, then rested a hand on my shoulder and moved it lower. Li Mingzhe stayed opposite and watched. They didn’t rush the clothes. Kissing first, hands over the sweater. I lifted the hem myself. Chen Haoran’s hand went under and closed around my breast, fingers sinking in, rolling the nipple until it was hard and sore. Zhou Zixuan undid my pants and slid his hand inside, pressing where I was already wet. I closed my legs a little and didn’t really stop him.
Chen Haoran carried me to the bed and spread my legs. He was fully hard, thicker than my hand could close around, veins raised, the head red and swollen. He didn’t push in right away. He dragged the head up and down between my lips, coating himself in me until the entrance was slick and sensitive, then drove in all the way. I made a sound. The stretch was immediate. He pulled back and the wet sound followed. While he fucked me he bent down and bit my nipple, licking and sucking until the skin was red and swollen, the flesh moving under his fingers. Zhou Zixuan knelt by my head and pushed into my mouth, hitting the back of my throat. He held the back of my head and said, “Deeper. When you touched it in the pool, did you already want this?” I could only make noise around him, spit running from the corner of my mouth.
They switched. Zhou Zixuan took me from behind, fast, each thrust landing on my ass with a wet slap. His hand reached under and rubbed my clit while he asked if I liked being fucked by three of them and told me to stop holding it in. Li Mingzhe watched and stroked himself, then moved up so I could take him in my mouth. Chen Haoran reached from the side, squeezing my breast until it spilled between his fingers, then lowered his head to the other one and bit lightly. They kept rotating. I was full, hot, the mix of them and me running down my thighs and onto the sheets.
Around two in the morning they had me on my knees and took turns from behind. Chen Haoran went first, deep enough that I felt it low in my stomach, the head pressing all the way in. He said low, “Don’t hold it. When you touched me in the pool, were you already wet? This tight, how long has it been?” I made a sound. Zhou Zixuan followed, faster, slapping my ass until it was hot and red, asking if I liked being fucked until my legs gave out, if I liked three of them. Li Mingzhe was slower but stayed buried, grinding at the deepest point while his hand worked my clit and my breast. I came more than once. My legs stopped holding me. They turned me over and kept going, sometimes two at once, one underneath and one in my mouth, or from behind and the side together. By a little after five I couldn’t continue. My stomach was sore, the entrance swollen and numb, and they finally stopped.
I was blank for a while afterward. Full. My body still reacting. My legs wouldn’t hold me when I tried to stand. They didn’t say much. They just lay there catching their breath. I know I like sex. I know how I look. Being taken by three of them for that long still went further than I expected.
We woke after ten. Chen Haoran asked if I still wanted to ski. I said yes. They showed me how to control speed on the intermediate runs. Zhou Zixuan took me past the terrain park. We ate at the restaurant on the mountain, then soaked at Hanan Mountain hot springs in the afternoon. That evening they wanted to feed the reindeer, so we took a car to the snow ridge park. The animals were calm. We fed them carrots and took photos. On the way back Li Mingzhe sat beside me with his hand on my thigh and didn’t speak.