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Jeremiah 29:11

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Therapy has been a game changer.. the abuse ive had in the past andd being an abuser aswell cuz we take accountability now… i just wish i could restart baxk to 0..

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You look at me and you say. This bitch definitely doesn’t have an eating disorder… you’d be surprised 😂 its either i have extreme anxiety periods that are around 120lb then when im able to enjoy food again im like a squirrel storing his food so back to 200lb😭

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I just want to have no thoughts at all

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Do you feel bonita? Cuz i for sure fucking don’t

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10 years. I lost my mom 10 years ago. I still see how the whole day went like it was yesterday. This won’t be a sad day. I won’t let it be. I love you mom

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Hoping to find our perfect home so i can finally heal myself because let me tell you anxiety aint for the weak

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After 10 years of hating on soccer do i actually appreciate it?

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I feel like i’m 16 again obsessing over a boy. But the boy is drake🫠😂🤢

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So much trauma. How can i heal myself!

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Make me a playlist.?

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Always had good taste in music. Good playlists. Communication thru music

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And here we go! Lets start chapter 30! 🥳🥂

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Wow. Today i feel absolutely horribly sad for some reason

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Nely 1
Anxiety 0

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God is still good. And this was in the plan. Better things for my personal journey

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The demons are so loud.

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Why does it still bother me.. questions……

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Sometimes i wonder why

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God really blessed me

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Therapy today kicked me in my balls. Its absolutely so painful to see how much ur parents affected you and mentally prepared u to fuck u up.. its absolutely devastating.