🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :)

☆ It/Neon☆ ☆ Scemo nerd B3 ☆ -DNI if Pro-Ana, Fatphobic/transphobic/homophobic, yk. My commissions are open! Link is below to commission me ^_^

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Just slept an entire day on accident it’s almost 7 PM I went to bed at like 11:30 😭
Why did no one wake me up?? 😭

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Skinniest I’ve been in like a year
Body eating

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

I need to be put down WHY IS HE STILL AWAKE WHY DID HE COME UOSTAIRS IT WAS RIFHR THERE 😭😭😭😭😭

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Virginity rocks!! (I am submissive)
(HOLY SHIT MY DUCKING BIBRATOR WAS OUT AND MU BROTHER ENTERED MY ROOM IM FONANMKMS)

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Need to make another one of this bad boy oh looorddd basically my fav scar

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

I almost feel like I have the self control I did when I was 15 again
I’m eating omad and nothing more and even when I think about getting more I dont
Pls pls pls I need this so bad 🥹

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Tfw I can feel my hipbones digging into my bed and for a moment I get to feel thin

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Trembling in my room because it’s a little cold here shivers I feel so petite ooo I’m just so cold because my little fan is on ooo I’m so little that even a small fan in my room makes me coollddd!! >_<
No srsly im so cold rn I might have to put on a sweater or smthn I b shakin

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

@Calicornyvnb LMAO no it’s my boobes 😛

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

First time self harming in almost 2 years
Im actually kinda Cryinf r
I don’t know why I started scratching but then I couldn’t stpp and honestly I don’t want to but then guilt rn is weighing on me

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Im trying to be quiet

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Holy shit I’m having. A like
Anxiety attack mixed with like my trauma floooding back I can’t breathe I’m shaking so bad what is this bro I’m trying talk to one of my friends but their asleep

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

I’ve been depressed for over 2 weeks bro it’s literally effecting my family it’s so hard because I can’t make myself get up or go to class or do anything other than sleep and go to the bathroom and even then Im an insomniac and all I’ve been thinking abt is sh and kmzing GMAB

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

My heart is still racing but what’s the point in freaking out if I’m just gonna die bro like yolo

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Bro I can’t wear tank tops for a while now I didn’t think abt that I love wearing tank tops they’re my fav article of clothnng:(
Auhhhh I fucked myself ovwr wtfhdh

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

I thought it would make the want go away but now I want to do more 🥹

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

I forgot how this hurt afterwrads

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

I did do soem more but my head got to me and I stopped
I literally went to the bathroom to Jack off and left clawing my skin off theres buh s in my akin ardhfhc
The bugs underneath the flesh yearn to be set free

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

It’s genuinely so hard having to talk to my mom about getting better when I’m actively planning when

[🍬Neon Rainbow!! 🧪 In Recovery for SH! :) @neonsaddict]

Oughhh my stomach hurts ;_;
I want to puke but I have nothing to puke
Get it
Cause
I haven’t ate
Guys I’m winning I swear