What a privilege to be tired from the work you prayed for. What a privilege to feel overwhelmed by growth you used to dream about. What a privilege to be challenged by a life you created on purpose. What a privilege to outgrow things you used to settle for.
Whenever chats about depression and suicidal ideation happen on here I always choose silence bc there’s no amount of explaining you can do to make people understand just how out of control you are when depression takes over your life.
Your 30s are all about owning your choices. Life happened the way it did, and no matter how bad we wish we could, we cannot go back and change it. The inability to own your choices keeps you from being able to make better choices as life goes on.
A big part of adulting is trying to rediscover your lust for life. Almost everything about the world we live in attempts to sucks the joy out of living but you actively have to seek joy and try to love living.