Unfortunately I get the same serotonin boost from getting high as I do allowing myself to eat
So now that I'm sober I look at food as a guilty pleasure + something to 'give' into - a moral failing I can't control an urge around
when im woken up by these dreams i feel small, waiting to be swallowed whole. I am struck with fear but i know what will happen if i move. there is no difference in the pain if i try to escape it. it is all the same it bleeds the same it'll wash out the same