william

hello, i used to be called peter or ritch.

[william @neverlandlad]

i have no concrete proof & it's all based on my gut feeling. prolly bcs i don't know that person in personal level, we just talked about workplace. i would like to believe that setting boundaries and coming into terms with my own feelings are the mature way to go.

[william @neverlandlad]

so i communicated it with my partner & friends there that i will be no longer coming to a gathering if that person is there. i feel vulnerable and unsafe of that person. we used to talk a lot in chat but that person being friendly to my partner beyond my own comfort threw me off.

[william @neverlandlad]

i felt unsafe in a social gathering & i asked my partner to leave with me without any explanation. the comfort & trust to my gut feeling is all i need.

[william @neverlandlad]

if i ever got to live again, i'll always search for riri's soul. i do think he's my soulmate. i hope he feels that i am his,too. but all i give him are headaches.

[william @neverlandlad]

board exam struggle account

[william @neverlandlad]

i am upset bcs i am disappointed with myself. i am disappointed bcs i lack discipline. i lack discipline bcs i am afraif of commitment.

[william @neverlandlad]

this whole adulting thing has been so hard for me. nothing in my life has prepared me for this. i just don't understand why we have to deal with all of these. i am just overwhelmed . i just want to cry, but i am so fucked up inside that i just shove it away.

[william @neverlandlad]

i know i should have my priorities narrowed down. i want to keep my work. i want to take the board exam, not for the sake of getting higher pay, just for the sake of getting over it and closing a chapter in my life.

[william @neverlandlad]

i just feel shit overall

[william @neverlandlad]

i applied SL today bcs i dont feel like going to work + i want to see the first day of the board exam. i should have been studying instead of watching netflix. oh god. how do i mantain discipline 😭

[william @neverlandlad]

i just feel bad that i can no longer enjoy my weekends but i know to myself that i need to get myself together i know i am stressed out about work i know i am stressed out with the review but i just kept on shoving my emotions just like that

[william @neverlandlad]

ang pagod ng ganitong systema. nabuburn-out ako sa thought na walang sasalo sakin every step of the process kaya i wake up with anxiety everytime.

[william @neverlandlad]

asan yung tapang ko kahapon nung sinabi ko na gusto ko pang mag stay sa company na to grabe umuwi ako kasi umaga pa lang stressed na ako feel ko yung sakit ng ulot at batok ko

[william @neverlandlad]

without anyone's guidance. i am yet to meet a mentor that can guide me all throught out the way. pero sabi nga nung iba dapat baguhin ko na yung mindset ko na ituturo sa akin lahat, all the step, more or less yung 1st to 2nd step lang then ako na bahala the rest pero beh

[william @neverlandlad]

i'm already working but money is not enought for me to enjoy life as it is

[william @neverlandlad]

man i feel so depressed as a working adult currently in this holiday season