Newt 🦎

22 // High cw // Atypical Ana // General MH Diary // block don't report

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

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* aty ana, DID, c-ptsd, bipolar 1 *
-- olanzapine fucked me over --
<--> former clinical anorexic <-->
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[femiiiiii. @femiiiszn]

my parents think i wake up late, but i literally just chill in my room after i wake up to avoid interaction as much as possible because i love being alone.

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

At least Zopiclone is helping with sleep. Not amazing sleep, but its alright.

I have therapy tomorrow so Im gonna see if I can come of it

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

The side effects of Zopiclone are hitting me now. Ugh, suicide suicide suicide oh how tempting

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

@rxzerb1ade I was obsessed with newts and salamanders when I was younger (kinda still am but not as much)

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

im so excited for England but so nervous at the same time like Im not going to be able to restrict fully

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

@AlhaithamLuvzz South is better lol
- from your local southerner

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

Ive been fluctuating a bit where my dad lives with me now and makes me eat but Im trying my best and I dont eat when he's not around (I try to get away not eating with him in the morning and lunch he's not here. Some evenings he's not here too. But my metabolism is screwed anyway

[del ୨୧˚ @wlxwieiadx]

weighing every day but only logging it when i’m happy with the result

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

sorry Ive been absent. Hypomania was a thing and now Im on a benzo to stop it and I feel like a zombie

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

How ive lost a kilo over the last two days and not more i dont know. Ive had a migraine and been vomiting non-stop and barely able to eat.

On the plus side, my appetite is gone so should lose more weight

[viehcy 🪅 @foreeeeeal]

Is anyone else ever genuinely shocked when you find out you have an impact on someone's life? A coworker can be like "I've missed seeing you" and I'm just like "???? you?? missed me????? My presence has an effect on your daily experience???? i affect things??? What???"

[amora ♡ forced recov @amorafawn]

being diagnosed with atypical anorexia feels like a humuliation ritual like just call me a fucking fatass

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

I didnt have the most amazing day steps wise but its 31 degrees all day I think Ill be forgiven.

Also, going to england in September yayyyy. Get to visit family, my favourite horse, best friend, old football team and you bet Im losing a shit ton of weight before then.

[Lou 🍉🍉🍉 @TojiLover678]

there's an oomf that i feel really sorry for because no one comments on their posts or interacts with them, sometimes i see them delete their tweets and it makes me sad, once i went into their profile to turn their notifications on and "edit profile" popped up…

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

sorry Ive been dead for a bit, had a busy time with family.

But Im still here and alive despite everything and still locked in

this heat though omg, not a happy bunny

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

@lineintheattic we can be wl buddies! (only if you want obs)

[chungus @fungusplumbus]

losing weight while being big is the WORST cuz either the difference isn’t even noticeable or i just go from fat to slightly-less-fat

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

okay I did a quick 5 minute core workout cos I couldn't help but feel guilty

[Newt 🦎 @newtsEDdiary]

did my OMAD. Did my 1.5 hour walk. then got a banging headache and cant do anymore without intense pressure in my head so thats a wrap on my plans for today thanks you and goodnight (Im not going to sleep yet)