2024 was me having a revenge on myself for what happened and all the years iβve wasted.
2025 , im focusing and looking for stability , consistency.
and love π€
β For I can do everything through Christ , who gives me strength β
is it better to think about someone whoβs long gone in your life and probably never gonna come back or,
someone you never gonna have but is always there and still treats you in a way that comforts you?
kalaula hidup saya ni ada plot cerita kan , saya rasa semua berkisar pasal change π fr gila semua orang dalam hidup saya berubah , macam semua lebih buruk dari sebelumnya π₯Ή
even the ones yang saya sayang betul and meant a lot for me.
mungkin itu la baitu jalan sorita dia π
kalau kau kena kasi sakit hati , ko rasa kau bole kasi maaf ka?
β awal awal memang susah la , tapi lama2 ko kasi maaf juga tu , cuma itula kau tidamau nampak suda muka dia , bikin panas saja kalau nampak β
but slowly it turns into a situation where i couldnβt live a day without talking to you or listening to your voice. where your presence in my life is a necessity.
i wasnβt looking for love when i started talking to you. it just feels nice to have someone i can vibe with , have a talk or a story with , and share something in between. have a laugh together, care for each other.
saya tidak kisah sakit macam mana pun saya kena sama apa yang saya buat ni sebab , saya yang cari tu sakit π punishment for myself for the past few years. itulah cara saya motivate diri , mungkin bukan cara yang bagus tapi bagi saya itu ja cara supaya saya berubah , be better.
sebab puas sudah saya spend years doing nothing. and puas sudah juga saya mau ingat balik , rasa menyesal sama tu years yang saya kasi bazir doing nothing. kalau suda masa dia untuk ubah , tukar , cari diri saya, inilah masa dia.
i never regretted doing what i am doing now,
because the way i see it , itβs a revenge for myself and a chance to prove what i can do.
push diri saya setiap hari , find my limit. selagi saya nda rasa sakit , selagi tu saya tidak berhenti. begitu ja sa buat semua benda skrg .