今天是一个特殊日子。
1989年,我十三四岁,没有政治立场,但有基本的善恶标准,有疼痛感,有记忆。
那一次的民主运动,给我留下很多具体的场景记忆。但我印象最深的不是柴玲振臂高呼,不是吾尔开希在李鹏面前侃侃而谈,也不是赵紫阳去广场苦口婆心……
我对那段历史最深刻的记忆,就是这位不知名的男青年,和他的那一句“Because this is my duty!”
我自己是一个典型的理想主义���,我不太去计较“有用没用?”,而执著于“该是不该!”
我的忘年交好友任叔叔说,一代人有一代人的责任,不适合跨越。而我坚信无论为人子还是为人夫,或者为人父,甚而至于只是此生为人,我就有责任去参与构建一个良性社会,去抵抗独裁邪恶力量,谋求一个让自己和家人站立做人的空间!
A witness's memoir. The first days of a full-scale war. Massacre on the Zhytomyr highway, Kyiv region.
Every Ukrainian killed by Russian soldiers is not a number. It is a person, people. Read this memoir.
We were driving in the opposite lane. Almost as soon as we entered the stretch [of the Zhytomyr highway towards Kyiv - ed.] we heard shots. We stopped, the car was not moving. Maksym jumped out and started waving: "There are children here! Children!"
It was all in front of me. He fell down. Ksenia started to rattle. Once, twice. Hordii said: "Why is mom rattling?" I turned around and took Hordii. I put him [in the driver's seat] and covered him [with myself]. I got a bullet (points to his right forearm - ed.). They were shooting for a long time.
And then there was silence. I opened the door and there were Buryats with machine guns... I realized that they were Russians. I said immediately: "There are children here, don't shoot, please, there are children here."
And they: "The child first". Hordii went out, but I couldn't go out... I got out and saw Maksym's legs. I wanted to approach him, but [the Russian] did not let me pass. He said: "That's it! That's it!" I started saying, "Ksenia is here! Mom is behind!" He looked: "Cover the child's eyes". I covered Hordii's eyes, I had a shawl. And he took us in that direction (to the area behind the gas station - ed.).
There was a pit there. I asked him [the Russian who brought us]: "Are you serious now? Don't do that." And he said: "I'm sorry. My child is also six years old. I'm sorry." I thought they were going to shoot us.
But a Russian officer appeared behind the pit and shouted: "Who opened fire? Who shot? Who brought her here?" I started to tell him: "We were on our way, we evacuated, they are shooting... we have children...", "You had no identification marks". I said: "We had white ones... and [the inscription] 'children' both in front and behind".
Someone behind me said: "What are you going to do with them?" He looked me in the eye for so long, and then said: "Let them go."
They took us out through the gas station and we left with Hordii.
Another Buryat took Hordii in his arms and asked, "What's your name?" "'Hordii'. "I'm sorry, I know you won't forgive me, but I'm sorry."
I think he was the one who shot and killed my parents.
Mass murder on the Zhytomyr highway: map, chronology and investigation of the Russian crime:
https://t.co/1O0K8BOvep