Hello everyone
I would like to say sorry to those who have commissioned me in the past and I didn't deliver. If you did feel free to message me and we can see what we can do. Which is get some art or refund when I start working next month
@KirangoRouge I don't think he will. People are keeping a close eye on this person. I already promised my friends if he does something like this again I'm stating his name and everything.
I'm back ish
Where was I?
Trigger warning: Please skip if you cannot handle subjects of SA, suicide or any abuse
I have been sad for a while and I can say I'm happy now. But for the past couple of years I can admit that the things that happened to me was not okay.
@skeleshipper Yush, apple cider for fall themes
I'm fine now. More like I was away cuz I don't like being online unless I'm all mentally here. I'm all fluffy n happy now
@KirangoRouge I was told to keep my mouth shut but it feels better to say a lil bit of what happened to me. I figure as long as I don't state their names. I'm just worried because they have my address too
It's a slow process that you don't even notice and becomes your normal. It even makes you toxic as well. I put my foot down when my life was in danger, and I wish I had done so sooner
When asked for an apology for SA me. He first blamed me, then two of my friends. When it wasn't accepted he said "I don't have time for this, my mother has cancer".
For months I was told it was all my fault. My mental health was not there.
Trying to get one last visit in. She ended the convo. It wasn't over, he was spreading rumors none stop I was a whore who slept around and broke his heart. Making up stories. When confronted he said "I did it out of anger. I don't remember"
My abuser had sent her over 40 text messages saying how much of a slut I was and how he was hurt. Of course she was upset by him because nothing he said made sense. He then tried being friendly "I'm sorry, I'll never see you or your cat again..."
I felt defeated and agreed. When I told my friends I had to go and who I was leaving with they said no and managed to get me a plane ticket and paid for it. Nice. Skip ahead to when I got home. I was asleep for days. I was awoken by my sister
I didn't say much until I cried because the trip was suppose to be about having fun. He even spread rumors I was having sex with my ex (not true at all) out of jealousy and anger because "How come he had a chance to date you! What about me?!"
He was getting more angry when I kept refusing to date him. He warned me he would ruin my friendships. He did. He threatened an ex of mine and I was to blame because my abuser was popular with this group of friends. I broke down and cried and told a few people what was up
During this trip he told me he didn't have his medication. I was guilt tripped into going to the pharmacy. Which the whole time he said things like "I wont OD on these again I promise. But stay with me because who knows what will happen."
He kept pulling me away to ask me out. Yelling and screaming when I said no. I would leave to be with my friends but he wouldn't let me talk. A few people noticed and I wasn't allowed to be left alone with him. However he still found moments to threaten me, hug me, whatever
I just kinda accepted the treatment. Eventually I met a group of friends irl, with my abuser (I didn't know I was being abused at the time). I car pooled with him because of his mental health. He told our friend group I had to be the one or else he would end himself with the car
This toxic friendship continued. I was told I was "whore-ish" even though I never had sex and wear sweats. My mental state got worse. I stopped everything I liked. They would tell me they would kill themselves, tell others I made them take pills.
I got into a horrible "friendship". I thought I was smarter but let someone tell everyone I was dating them. When I fought back it seemed they understood for a couple months. They visited and things happened. I was blamed for my own assault to "oh he's just a love sick puppy"
Sooo I was holdin onto this for like, ever. I was suppose to be a part of a vine but couldn't finish. Will I finish? Maaaaaybe the more sfw pages
I'm still deciding on what imma do
#nsfw#underfell#hentai#furry