November 3rd,
October was a bad month, I went against what I stood for and betrayed the one person who’s been my light in this darkness.
$1,500+ down the drain and nothing to show for it, again.
This month is all about self improvement and saving.
At the start of the month I drafted a new spreadsheet, to track my daily fitness goals and keep me motivated, with the added bonus that, if the target isn’t met, the difference will be monetarily added to my debt.
Things are looking different here as well, finally did some spring cleaning and updated a few things. Trying to give myself the impression of a fresh start everywhere I look.
Yesterday I joined the nnn Discord server, it looks like there are 750 odd participants this year. I plan on going the whole month and earning their “Diamond” participant reward for 26’. It’s been eye opening to resonate with a new crowd, striving towards similar goals.
To myself, do better, you don’t have to be perfect but you can strive to be the best version of yourself.
To the community, thanks for reading this far, I know it’s an odd one but I had to vent.
To my Domme, I am sorry. I am sorry for leaving you in the way that I did. I am sorry that I am the headache that I am. I am sorry for recklessly overlooking your happiness with my actions and I am sorry but, I will never give up on this dynamic with you.