dazai

ehheeeee un pertoj t rroj

[dazai @nktpash]

I am not short, i am vertically challenged

[dazai @nktpash]

Maybe the saddest part about losing ppl is that the last time you saw their face you had no idea youd spend years trying to remember it

[dazai @nktpash]

I was so focused on creating a beautiful garden that i no longer care whether a butterfly will come

[dazai @nktpash]

I survived all the snakes, it was the butterfly who killed me

[dazai @nktpash]

I feel uneasy

[dazai @nktpash]

The second dream was on a 6pm nap, he texted me and i cant remember w we talked about exactly but he said he wanted to be besties n one day introduce ea to thelove of our lives, my thought process was no i am blocking you does he not remember us saying goodbye? Thats how it ended

[dazai @nktpash]

I dreamt about him twice today,
First early in the morning I was in a restaurant in a short black dress crying while approaching him and I remembered remembering his whole face with such detail thinking to myself wow i had completely forgotten w he looked like, i was heartbroken

[dazai @nktpash]

If you’re whole heart wasn’t in it i know a piece of jt was

[dazai @nktpash]

You chose her so stop looking for me

[dazai @nktpash]

To feel loved and not actually be loved is so cruel

[dazai @nktpash]

You can erase memories, but never feelings

[dazai @nktpash]

You destroyed me so i guess you win

[☘︎ @vintageforestt]

she's a moon girl

[dazai @nktpash]

Did you know my name?
Like ive known yours

[dazai @nktpash]

I don’t want to forget
I want to be okay with remembering
I don’t want what we had to fade into nothingness
I want to be grateful of the time we had together
But im still full of anger

[dazai @nktpash]

Im afraid i will spend entire years trying to not need you
I wish for you with my every breath
I love you
But love won’t bring you back

[ᜰ @boyaviatorr]

Me tweeting my audience

[dazai @nktpash]

Yesterday i dreamt as if i was in a difficult state mentally and needed your help so i called you, u didnt pick up but u messaged asking me why i reached out after so long cus u were curious of my answer, i also checked ur social media n u had a buzzcut, i didnt wake up sweaty

[dazai @nktpash]

Im sending you kisses through the clouds
So when it rains
My kisses will touch your lips

[dazai @nktpash]

I really missed him for a good moment