That person you are missing right now is making a conscious decision every day to not have you in their life & that should be all the closure you need.
the neurodivergent obsession with trying to figure out why someone did what they did. replaying it. analyzing it. asking your friends. asking your therapist. asking your friends again. because your brain literally cannot accept that some people are just cruel for no reason.
I really dislike the concept of “we experience people differently” because what have I done for you to be horrible to me but kind to the next person?? 😭
I don’t think people speak enough about the quiet regret that follows after being vulnerable with someone you believed was safe. There is a particular kind of heartbreak in realising that the hands you trusted to hold your truth were the same ones that made you regret revealing it at all. It makes you mourn not only the person, but also the softness in you that trusted so openly. And perhaps that is why betrayal feels so heavy, because it teaches the heart to hesitate where it once reached naturally.
Can you, for 21 days, do the following?
- Wake up every day at 4:00 AM.
- Give up breakfast and lunch.
- Read all the scriptures I'll ask you to read.
- Pray like you've never prayed before.
For the sake of your destinies...are you willing to pay this price?
i lied, i didn't go to sleep. i actually stayed up all night with tears rolling down my face wondering why i'm never good enough for anyone and what i did to deserve all this.