nene

mama ♡ / my brothers keeper🕊

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[THE BLUEPRINT @TKVSH]

My only purpose right now on this earth is making sure this child has an amazing life & is loved unconditionally. And I will do everything I can to be the best mom ever. 🌷🤘🏾

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People need to mind their own business that is another reason why I have kept my life so private lately

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& when it comes to the people I love it will only take one call for me to drop everything for them

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one of my biggest fears is going back to a place that haunts me and it hurts so much that my mom is still in the hospital where I can’t even go visit her 💔

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hate the feeling like this happens every time and shit will never change even though I believed it would

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& I miss my mom I wish she was here to help me out

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want to cry and crash out and go home

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the most stressful weekend

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I just wish I could’ve stayed home at this point!

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I’m so irritated

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9 months ago I left with my heart crushed from that hospital and I told myself I would never go back there and I still have not. May it stay that way.

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chicho, I wonder if you know what if feels like living without you. How painful this is.

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If I could rewrite the story. You survived.

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so irritated

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I hope that everyday you know it’s hard for us to move forward since you left.

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Patz. I wish you could’ve just lived longer.

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and then I was triggered but that day in September. That haunts me. That eats me up. I feel it all, every moment, every second is in my memory, in my hands, in front of me. I feel it happening all over again like it didn’t happen and I’m experiencing it for the first time.

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ugh I wanna fucking cry because it feels like I’m doing SHIT ALL ALONE AGAIN!!!

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Back to the same old bs.

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sometimes I hate feeling how I’m feeling

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My step daughter is almost coming and I’m so excited!!!