✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙

💫ᴱᵃᵗⁱⁿᵍ ᴰⁱˢᵒʳᵈᵉʳ ᵀʳⁱᵍᵍᵉʳ ᵂᵃʳⁿⁱⁿᵍ💫 𝗗𝗡𝗜 𝗶𝗳 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝟭𝟴. 𝘚𝘞: 114kg 𝘎𝘞: 54kg. 𝐈 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐞

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

Trigger warnings for:
- Eating Disorder
- Meanspo
- Thinspo
- mental illness

I created this account to post my own meanspo towards myself. It is a documentation of my mental health recovery journey with an eating disorder. I do not post my meanspo to attack other people.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

How could you fail yourself again? Binging? Not every day is a cheat day.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

You will still be fat at your ugw, who are you kidding?

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

Most of #edtwt says binge as in 600 calories a day and you say "binge" as in 3500. You are not like them at all.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

How is it that when other people are depressed they stop eating, but you binge? You have no self control.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

Your guilt is supposed to be the deterrent. Your goals are supposed to be deterrents. Your perfect body is supposed to be a deterrent. And yet you still keep eating? You are weak.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

Will I finally reach my goal weight

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

You could have been skinny but instead you had no self control.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

Today is a new day. How do you plan to loose weight? Definitely not by binging.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

YO JUST A BIG ASS REMINDER THAT NOT EVERYONE WITH AN EATING DISORDER IS UNDERWEIGHT!!!

EATING DISORDER ≠ SKINNY

#edtwt #ed

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

I can't believe you let yourself down. Eating when you weren't hungry? You didn't let anyone else down but yourself. You disappointed yourself. You should blame yourself. You are guilty and yet you would do it again just for the instant gratification.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

You're eating 𝘆𝗲𝘁 𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻? You have no self control. You can't reach your goal like this.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

An eating disorder is about control and honey, you've got none.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

You have no one and nothing to blame for your weight gain. Not depression. Not stress. Not life events. No, you were in control the entire time and you have to carry that extra weight like it's baggage.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

You binge ate again and now the regret washes over you. You want to tell yourself it's okay, "tomorrow is a new day", but its not. You'll just restart the vicious cycle of binge starve binge starve.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

Oh you lost a couple of pounds? Maybe it could have been more if you didn't eat anything

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

You are never going to reach your ugw if youre just sitting around. Get up. Exercise. The more you move the better.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

I feel guilty when I eat anything, even if it's healthy

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

The mirror is your friend. Stop saying it's your worst enemy. It's just telling you the fat, ugly truth you don't want to see.

[✄┈┈𝑇𝑊 𝐸𝐷: 𝑀𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜 𝐶𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑙 @nocaloriewater_]

𝑻𝑾 // #𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐

Taking photos of yourself won't make the fat go away, it'll just tell you what you already know: you're way bigger than you think you are.