noodles

i write about things here i cant share offline

[noodles @noodlesisready]

Let’s just make this money abeg

[Ebony Enby @Adureeer]

Designed and handcrafted by meee😙

[calico of 🏚twt @sxalcalico]

being exposed to sexual content at a young age led me to be hypersexual and now I have horribly weird and disgusting kinks but nobody gotta know

[‏ِ @karoblaqx]

one day i’ll be up and be up forever.

[NEXT? @Nextstory8]

اعشقها وهي قدامي .

[noodles @noodlesisready]

I wish to have a family soon

Wanna experience what’s it like for my wife and kids to feel safe around me

Emotionally and financially safe

[noodles @noodlesisready]

Lord, if I put my heart into this grind one more time. Let it just take off properly

No more crash landing please

[noodles @noodlesisready]

Not a nice way to start my morning

Saw two creatives on here with interesting careers

Then I started comparison. Instead of pinpointing what failed and what I’ve to do to improve

[noodles @noodlesisready]

Mistakes I made building a creative career:
I was to passionate, skipped the business side
I wasn’t in environment where my talent could thrive

Gotta watch out for these moving forward

[noodles @noodlesisready]

There’s the debt I’ve got from years of shrinking myself. I want to stop shrinking

[noodles @noodlesisready]

All roads is leading me back to marketing and sales again

[noodles @noodlesisready]

I just kind of arrived there, and I think that’s what I’m trying to be more careful about now.

[noodles @noodlesisready]

Because honestly, when I really commit to someone, I want all of you. It’s desire mixed with impulsiveness, and sometimes I don’t know how to regulate it. I’m looking forward to your texts. I see the notification that you’ve read my message and immediately I’m excited because

[noodles @noodlesisready]

love, lust, desire and all of that. I’m scared it could become distracting or put me on a path I genuinely may not want to be on.

I’ve had experiences where I didn’t really plan for where things were going.

[noodles @noodlesisready]

then there’s been a part of me that’s wanted to say, “Hey, can we get back to talking?”

But then there’s another part of me that doesn’t want to come across as needy. I don’t want to feel like I’m more obsessed with her than she is with me.

[noodles @noodlesisready]

I was talking to this girl and we got into an argument.

I felt a connection with her, and in the course of the argument, my approach was extremely logical. I wanted to understand where it came from, what actually happened, and how we could prevent

[noodles @noodlesisready]

something like that from happening again.

But I think she was much more connected to how she felt about the argument. And that’s valid. I just think we were approaching the same problem from very different places.

She eventually gave me a very stern, direct response, and since

[noodles @noodlesisready]

And I thought, nah. I don’t think I want to do that to them.

[noodles @noodlesisready]

Then I thought about my friends.

What if they were the ones who had to find out that I killed myself?

I thought about what finding out that way could do to them something that might stay with them in a way that can’t be undone.

[noodles @noodlesisready]

This morning, I went down a Reddit rabbit hole—reading stories from people who eventually died by suicide, and parents who later found out that way.

[noodles @noodlesisready]

I wake up every morning and don’t have to pay for the fact that I’m here.

If it’s a gift, I want to actually live it. Nourish it. Explore it. See how much it can become.

I think I want to find out.

[noodles @noodlesisready]

It triggered something in me too. A thought of wanting to try it myself. I don’t think I had the courage to, but the thought was there.

And then, strangely, I found myself thinking about life.

Life is such a strange gift.