Kat Foster

Don’t mind me, I’m just complaining about my overly toxic family. Feel free to block me or whatever 😘😘

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

So this is a throwaway account for me just to vent. Feel free to block me and move on.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

Whatever fuck around with other people don’t act surprised when I do it back

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

I just for ONCE want to be enough. Got a degree and it’s not enough. I’m trying to find a job and it’s not enough. I’m trying to be a supportive wife and it’s not enough. I don’t bend over backwards for everyone and it’s not enough.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

The one person Ive always talked to when shit gets rough is currently trying to forget that I exist. And this fact is making my intrusive thoughts worse.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

Don’t belittle someone for having EMOTIONS. And then get mad when they get MAD at you for invalidating them.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

I’m so fucking tired of this bullshit.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

So is it a type of abuse if they tell you let EVERYTHING go. Basically saying without saying “you can’t be anything but happy all the time” asking for a friend.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

Ah yes, I’m the asshole for doing all the shit your son refuses to do. Am also an asshole because I take care of him 24/7 yeah I’m sorry 😒

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

TW//Covid.
*me having several panic attacks trying to get comforting words from a really close friend who ends up brushing me off*

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

*it being what’s currently going on in my family*

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

Not my friends ignoring the fact that I’m having a whole mental breakdown to talk about why it’s worse for them. I hate it here.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

I’m one more shitty thing away from jumping off a cliff.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

Me: *is obviously struggling and expresses disinterest in what I’m currently getting a degree in*
My husband: don’t worry about it you’ll soon have a good job in something you’re good at.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

14) *my SO can’t do much (sitting, standing and walking for tops 15+)(UNLESS he’s playing any sort of video game)* “why aren’t you cleaning the house faster? Why aren’t the dishes or the laundry done yet?!” *All while he’s playing video games since 9am*

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

TW//
✨Things my toxic family has said. ✨
1) You’re depressed? You have nothing to be depressed about.
2)(this happened a couple days ago) *tells them how suicidal I am* laughing in my face and promptly pretends I didn’t say anything.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

13) *my SO constantly making r*pe jokes and threatening me with r*pe. After I’ve already said “no”* my SO “you do realize I’m your husband right?! And I can’t take it anytime I want”

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

IF my SO makes another r*pe joke imma hex him. That’s 7 today. And I’m fed up

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

I still HATE my degree, and briefly mentioned it. And got the “oh you’re close to done, think about how great our life is going to be after you’re done. You’ll have a good job and life will be wonderful”. I have a year and a half left. And I’m MISERABLE.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

i hate the degree plan i chose, i have NO interest in it what so ever. and i can’t tell my partner because the fight that would come of it would be worse then what i’m facing alone.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

i can hear it now “how could you throw our future away, we need this degree”

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

TW//implied r*pe, abuse.
My SO is very verbal about their annoyance about me being an ace. Yesterday he says “you know I’ll get it one way or another. I know you secretly like it” as he continues to touch me after multiple annoyed looks and several harsh “STOPS”.

[Kat Foster @nooneyouknow112]

my toxic trait literally no one asked for. i care too much about people who don’t give a shit about me. i try to make people talk to me and end up pushing them away because i’m asking “are you okay?” way too frequently