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it’s a in the moment thing

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so how did i get dumped on the same day within 3 years of each other

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I told him I’ve been running and he said “seriously you look amazing .. like I can tell”

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J.o said that I look amazing like 3 times he said it .. def bc I lost weight ,, idk why I think about it so much

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I impressed myself honestly

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Just did my first ever backpacking trip in NZ .. 20 miles .. I can’t believe I did it

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I wish he didn’t associate me with such a negative feeling

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Just talked to J and apologized for everything .. it was a good talk

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My God gives clean slates

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But when I said “what?” He said “why not here”

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I swear .. I’m not kidding when I say when I talked to J about me going back to Japan he whispered “what about me” I swear it happened but what if I made it up idk

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God what can I do for my best friend

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Been having some bad dreams lately

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I miss him .. it’s not fair

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And it left such a weird feeling in my whole body and chest and literally woke me up

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Had a dream that literally woke me from my sleep .. J on a date

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Ah man I’m started to feel lonely and again like a waste

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He invited me over for pizza night ,, all his skater friends are there I don’t think it’s my vibe

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Will I ever get over my ex bf

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And I go run almost everyday so I know I’m doing okay and I pray more throughout the day

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I rededicated my life to the Lord

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It’s been 3 days since I quit smoking shweez again for real this time