1. I've made the decision to recover. It's horrifying, especially before summer, and especially because I'm not in a "sick looking" body (visually I'm still overweight, although my bmi is normal). Ever since I can remember the thing I wished for when blowing out birthday candles
6. accepted that. Anyway, sorry, this has just been a pile of word vomit I just had to get my thoughts out SOMEWHERE. I'll probably stay somewhat active on here but just wanted to kinda waffle away and explain myself. Thanks for reading if anyone got this far 💀🤗
1. I've made the decision to recover. It's horrifying, especially before summer, and especially because I'm not in a "sick looking" body (visually I'm still overweight, although my bmi is normal). Ever since I can remember the thing I wished for when blowing out birthday candles
5. my body has healed and adapted. Yes, I know the mindset of recovering just to lose more weight isn't ideal or even good, but if it gets me to gain control of my life again, then I honestly do not care. I'm probably going to relapse over and over again and that is okay. I have
Day 6: 550
Water: 3l
Steps: around 8k idk i wasn't wearing my watch...
Cals: ~500
Sleep: 7h
Had a rly shitty day 😵💫 I'm gonna finish this diet and then stop counting cals for a while since its only making me want to binge 😅