Time passed. Emotions fluctuated, depression left but now I’m stuck with a diff feeling inside. This feeling taught me about myself. I know what I want after this journey now
This new journey I will learn to be more grateful for. Just emotionally exhausted. I’m taking another leap to another city June 5th but this time I’ll still be in Texas
Anyway I’m delusional I’m talking to myself hopefully one day I’ll be talking to u. I crave u, I want u and I want u to feel me and hear me. I just want u, “A novabase” “a fan base” “a constellation” behind me “the brightest star in the sky” everything’s dim rn
All my accounts are dead. I’ve unfollowed people who simply don’t care about what I’m doing musically and just care about me personally and followed them on a priv insta. I’ve restarted on SoundCloud. A part of me died so I’m rebirthing. I’ll come back to dis one day💔⭐️
I’ve gotten so many opportunities in these 10 years and still get lucky opportunities but suddenly those things went from making me feel like I’m next up to wondering which one will save me and be the one. Now my expectations are lower.
Give me the strength to figure all of this out, give me the strength to be really consistent and annoyingly posting so much I’m not forgotten. Return me to the soldier that blew up on multiple platforms. I’m numb now I can’t even smile the same
I’m in 10 years deep, I’m 27 this doesn’t even feel fun anymore I’m at this very park again asking for strength. It’s 11:11pm May 26th. God showed me the way and gave it to me before and I learned lessons. I won’t be selfish, just simply give me my courage back
I just went to La for 7 months and didn’t go exactly as planned , let downs, got to see and do some cool things for my music career, met some big people got to perform but in the end… I’m in the same place. I came back and got blessed with another journey I’m about to embark
I just deleted Instagram for the 4th time in my life until the 5th. I’m at a park alone not just any park one of the first parks I came to, to feel spiritually lifted and where I talk to god alone before I had a small but significant rise in 2020.
I’m awake. Reality hurts. But it’s needed to be shown the truth. I’d never give up..but 10 years doin it and even now knowing no ones is reading this, hearing me or feeling me. I’m exhausted. I’ll try again tomorrow.
I live in LA now. Never giving up never gave up, not forcing no “lock in” wit nobody no more, ion even wanna say im
Rockin wit whoever rockin wit me, the circle small and precise through god.
Thank him for allowing me to come here!
@YaBoiAction@TeamYouTube Justice for action man, a good god willing man and y’all keep letting this happen to the man. He’s gonna bring fruition to YouTube! Help my boi out @TeamYouTube