can’t help it . it’s
been this way for
too long . i want
it —- *us , to get
better .
( fingers twitching
in her lap , thinking
heavily for a moment
before retrieving
the flask hidden within
her bodice and taking
a large swig . )
but that don’t mean
i ain’t to blame either .
i’ve become so bitter
towards my man . i
don’t even recognize
him anymore , but i
miss him so damned much .