I fucking love people who become more themselves with age. Stranger taste. Clearer boundaries. Louder laugh. Less interest in impressing random people. Watching somebody slowly stop auditioning for the world is fucking beautiful.
I continue to believe this. I have had my heart broken a comical amount of times, most as a result of my chasing that which I was blinded by and was not right for me for some reason. However I truly regret nothing. I believe I have had the gift of deeply loving several people and that has shaped me immeasurably, even though it has not yet worked out in some final love of my life way yet. Each flame sculpted and melted my heart into the shape it has today (through an immense amount of pain, no doubt). Eventually, each heartbreak clarified my eyes so I now know more sincerely what feels right and true for me, rather than my earlier dreams that were clouded by all sorts of false dreams. I do deeply feel grateful for each of these people I loved for revealing that which I would not have been able to see without them
start with the basics. 8 hours of sleep, 3l of water, meditation, 15 minutes of reading and some movement daily. make this your default routine, do not go back to your old habits. this compounds to affect your entire life.