VantaBlank_Grouse

postdoc in the US 💻 🧬, immigrant, #STEM, an account where I express dummy thoughts and deeper concerns

[VantaBlank_Grouse @ntetrix]

This year is so strange, the time is flying by

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It worked!

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a recipe for self-sabotage: find abusive relationships, don't make close friends, try to work all the time, make sure you don't have a future career, don't read and watch movies, don't walk, and don't talk to anyone, avoid therapy. do it for 5 years. voila, you fucked.

[VantaBlank_Grouse @ntetrix]

so, no, it didn't work

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R --slave --no-restore --no-save -e "1+1"
[1] 2 #coding

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Number of columns in files: awk '{ print NF+1"\t"FILENAME }' * |sort -k1 -n |head #codenote

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also, "find . -size -2000c -type f -delete" to delete files smaller than 2000 bytes

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find . -size 0 -delete

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uff, it's getting darker. I don't know the future but support is not on the horizon

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@g_naki @AcademicChatter Email!

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@MelaninHealth gain some energy to find one when things are getting too dark

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@jacketrose86 🙋 all of these

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https://t.co/2nGAykCSFS

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amazing playlist https://t.co/h7A9V75f9c

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https://t.co/s0N3fDxLBp

[angelica ♡ @angeliicuhhh]

a very important thread:

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It was not that bad bc of my amazing friends. I miss them a lot.

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my life'd be different if I had support. my family is toxic😑 My phd lab was a nightmare😬 I'm far from them, but it left scars on my consciousness. I've heard "you will never" and "nah you can not" a gazillion of times. I'll never be like them. And one day I'll recover. Be kind.

[VantaBlank_Grouse @ntetrix]

Diamine Bloody Absinth is beautiful #fountainpen #ink