✧neptune✧

peaked at lw ☆ he/him ☆20 y.o ☆

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

My mind core

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

@7plkadots Obviously I don't know how she worded everything I wasn't there but in my opinion it's morally right and responsible for an adult to intervene when you see a kid you're teaching obviously struggling with an ed. though I do understand that she might have not handled it gracefully

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

@nicchelo No way these replies are real people they're making incel bots now?

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

As a homosexual it's my god given right to have anorexia so it better start soon

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

Every fucking night I can't sleep cuz I'm tweaking over my appearance

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

I think I could starve but at this point I'm too scared of gaining it all back again I learned my lessons however I hate what I have now and I want to get rid of it asap

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

It's not like I ever recovered but I had a couple of months when I ate food with no guilt and just waited to get on testosterone but holy shit it's so easy to get back into this horrible useless disordered mindset that does nothing for my body and ruins my mood

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

Fuck my stupid chungus life getting on t is indeed the best thing that has happened so far in my life but the fact that I still have to lose a ton of weight to look like a man just makes me want to die

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

I've been on diy hrt for 3 months now thank god for that but from everything I understand about fat redistribution it won't just magically move over to form a masculine frame for my chud ass so I guess having anorexia would always be a positive for me huh shame I don't have it

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

You know it's over when you start thinking that oatmeal and yogurt would taste nice together again

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

@sunblessedb0nes What the hell you're tweaking you're literally the cutest ever so so handsome!!

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

When the eating disorder is back and still useless

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

Can someone get a hitman off me thanks

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

I'm like 6 months weight loss plan!!! And can't eat 1200 calories and just maintain and then I'm like
1 year weight loss plan!!! And than I can't eat 1500 calories and just maintain
10 year weight loss plan it is

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

When I was skinny I truly was in the "well at least I'm skinny " mindset when something bad happened and now that I'm fat and something bad happens I'm like AND I'M FAT ON TOP OF THAT how do you not be suicidal

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

Every day I write I wanna kms in our siblings chat and everyday they just joke it off cuz they know I'll never do it but god I do mean it I feel awful I've been feeling awful my whole life and no one wants to talk about not one fucking word of solace or a how are you question

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

Brother just named the fact that I have suicidal thoughts but will never act on them plot armor and that is hilarious

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

You all are fucking insane and evil bruh

[⋆ eiskalt ⋆ @bitchforcardioo]

Ngl she's so real

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

I hate how Ed related subreddits delete your post if you talk about being happy and feeling good at your lw and seeing it as a reason to never recover
I get why it's harmful and could be interpreted as glamorizing but I truly do not relate to people who were miserable at their lw

[✧neptune✧ @null1ty0]

We went to a gay club with my sis and I physically cannot get drunk cuz I just want to chug water all the time and she is so drunk it's so funny to see and experience she's giggling in her sleep lmaoooo
Mind you we drank the same amount of cocktails