The journey of being in my 20s so far is the journey of expressing the side of me I was never comfortable sharing with others around me through the power of the internet, then slowly realizing I can only participate in a relationship in a superficial or shallow way if
That and I don't know why we heckin tell ourselves that music has to have a structure or hit some kind of target length. Leading back up to a repeated 'chorus' just feels so wrong on so many things I make. I wanna explore the idea for as far as my style will take it, then resolve
it's weird how creative arts attract so many hordes of folks who grossly over-value attention and follower count as validation. Maybe I was privileged to feel a small fandom boom of 350 to learn that the actual desire was to meet folks to chat to and imagine with
I still like making music, but all the technical crap of making it sound good is stale and passion-draining. I yearn for the old mobile DAWs. Slap it together and hit send. Proper DAWs that actually give you freedom make it easy to produce lacklustre mixdowns.
@CornerSugarcube@z4m3nh0f watched show 2013-2017, heavily into fandom creativity, particularly music. Very formative years. ponies injected into dna. S6 was mostly not great, watched S7 to be happy the show was doin somethin new. retreated to lil pony friend groups. Float around the fandom. Love my folks!
@zizzlearts when the people your art connected with or intrigued are dragged away unknowingly by the algorithm preferring their other interests, will you give up on those that found meaning in what you made or will you burn out bright?
everyone's eager to say it's bad to have an echo chamber friend group until they actually meet someone who is willing to give the benefit of the doubt to the person they're mad at
it's always so funny seeing the folks I met on pt like six years ago on the 18+ server display their age on their twitter profiles and they're like 22. They must have felt like amogus around me when I would roast annoying little heckers for probably being 16
me when employed: 1 monster max a day and none past 1pm no exceptions. need the energy boost for work but don't wanna interrupt good sleep. gotta use the energy!
me when unemployed: well 1 mango loco and one white. idk, maybe a third if im thirsty at 2am. red bull limit separate