charlie

24, he/they/she idrc . 5'6" cw 140lbs smh. mdni pls

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

ive been on shedblr for years, mostly edblr. moving here bc tumblrs censorship means idek what tags are functional anymore. ive heard edtwt / shtwt is mega toxic but idgaf anymore idk. just b patient while i figure out the norms here pls !

[yu² @losewyu]

˚. ᵎᵎ #moothunt day 1 .ᐟ.ᐟ

♯ yuyu, 02’, she/her

♯ undiagnosed bulimic

♯ basic dni + mdni plz

♯ no life so im very interactive

♯ i like everything but lovve horror and old animations

♯ ifb + dms are open

#edtwt #shedtwt #shtwt #edrtwt

♡/⟳ to be mutuals !!

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

i did some very basic low weights lifting for my shoulders and back and core, so thats swag. im gonna try to not let my phobia/anxiety put me into a spiral !!

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@illfate ALSO adding in. sativa and hybrids make me binge more than indicas on average !! so like messing w types, strains, etc.

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@illfate i binge when high a fair bit of the time tbh but large volume of water or tea or diet coke plus nicotine helps a lot (i do not recommend anyone start nic tho). + eating omad or large volume low cal fruit/veg right before

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

i keep having panic attacks !! im gonna smoke weed so i dont lose my mind. everyone wish me a very dont binge

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@sweetcupcakedd omg i need to make an account !! this is such a good idea, i normally just time mine but it being social would make me wanna do step number goals more !!

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

i dont even care i am just going to sink into agoraphobic stuff every minute im not working i cant handle the world rn. its too horrible. i cant do it.

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

i hate emeto sm i hate having it i hate that it (plus other issues admittedly) gave me agoraphobia i hate being a not functional person !!!!

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

atleast i wont binge for a while now !!! bc the anxiety will make it hard to eat anything. i may be debilitated by my anxiety /ocd/phobia but atleast ill get skiinnnnyyyyyyy

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@Cyute_cals i geniunely have to avoid news related to this stuff bc it sends me into a spiral, its v frustrating bc i used to have friends that would say ignoring the news makes you a bad person and ik they meant ppl who DONT care but its hard out here :((( we r not alone in it atleast

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

like genuinely what the fuck what are the fucking odds. i hope that guys okay fr i just. im at a loss for words i called my partner sobbing and had to park bc i cannot handle seeing that. i hate having a severe phobia for a bodily function.

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

emeto ment-- but i did not infact weight lift at a gym, i saw a guy on the side of the road vomit and had a panic attack and went home :((( i hate being emetophobic bc wtf. i cant escape it. im going to try not to let it ruin my week but i struggle sm w emeto :(((((

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@hctysn ppl say 1x or 1.5x ur body weight in lbs in grams of protein, i do x.8 in low res, x.5 in high res ideally ! but tbh i suck at sticking to it

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

im gonna weight lift today and end high res, wish me a very dont get mad and give up bc i feel tired and stupid !! #ricecaketwt

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@_starsstrv_ aldi, trader joes, or h-mart BUT only when its middle of a weekday EMPTY bc i get so so overwhelmed when theres other ppl in the same isle as me (im so # normal)

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@gentlgutr0t i cant do it , ive had sm panic attacks trying bc the brain fog makes retail customers act extra evil i think. plus i had a hypoglycemic episode at work once so that scares me!! its just not doable for me :,))

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

i like talking to ppl over txt but as soon as ppl want to voice/vid call or hang out in person i get very scared !! i am like legit a bad friend and i have almost no social battery esp rn bc im working. plus a history of unhealthy friendships i lowkey dont want friends rn.

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@Cyute_cals omg i also dropped out !! <3 and yeah i think learning coping mechanisms, and unmasking when u can, and learning to treat your brain how it is not how you wish it could be is key !! I'm experiencing this less overall bc im geting better habits, just stressed atm bc of big change.

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

my childhood psychiatrist swore i had bipolar2, but my current one and a few prev ones say i dont experience mania its just adhd and autism and depression. idk which is true but if i have bipolar 2 ive gotta be rapid cycling

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

@Cyute_cals i think legit like theres trauma in trying to pretend youre functional and/or neurotypical and then burnout that creates a similar pattern. but thats just my theory

[charlie @nvrstr0ngenough]

overdid it w cigs bc i was so so scared id binge tonight and now i feel supa nauseous :(((((( would not recommend 1/10 (the 1 is bc i prolly will not binge now ill just go to bed and get shit quality sleep but hey no cals)