I really need to step on some crunchy orange leaves, go to a corn maze and a pumpkin patch, wear a hoodie outdoors, and run arkund singing Spooky Scary Skeletons without being judged. Fall can't come soon enough
The main thing I'm afraid of is letting it slip that I wouldn't be against being more than friends but I genuinely think the only reason it could come out is bc I can't tell if she is in the same boat or not and sooo many ppl already think we're dating(ie: rumors AT WORK)
So I have an intense fear of not being in control and so in an attempt to work on it my friend and I have a plan to get me drunk in her apartment tomorrow night(I have never been more then barely tipsy due to this fear) and am nervy
She tried to have me talk through what I was afraid could happen and it made me super stressed bc for me to not be afraid in a situation I have to either give up full control(airplane for example) or just do it without thinking